Not having access to any methods is making me feel insane

[sachaa]

I hate this feeling. I want to kill myself quickly and painlessly. I've tried taking pills, and it just made me vomit. I tried slitting my wrists but I'm too cowardly to go deep enough. I don't have access to guns in my country, and I'm too scared to jump off a building, too. I feel like I'm just stuck in suicide limbo. I don't want to live anymore but killing myself is too scary. I just want to be in some weird freak accident so I don't have to think about it.

 

[bigballsniqqa]

I hate this feeling. I want to kill myself quickly and painlessly. I've tried taking pills, and it just made me vomit. I tried slitting my wrists but I'm too cowardly to go deep enough. I don't have access to guns in my country, and I'm too scared to jump off a building, too. I feel like I'm just stuck in suicide limbo. I don't want to live anymore but killing myself is too scary. I just want to be in some weird freak accident so I don't have to think about it.

what about hanging

I hate this feeling. I want to kill myself quickly and painlessly. I've tried taking pills, and it just made me vomit. I tried slitting my wrists but I'm too cowardly to go deep enough. I don't have access to guns in my country, and I'm too scared to jump off a building, too. I feel like I'm just stuck in suicide limbo. I don't want to live anymore but killing myself is too scary. I just want to be in some weird freak accident so I don't have to think about it.

i feel insane because i have a method lmao, its like when i found out i could actually ctb i have no intention of getting better and im stuck in a loop of "should i start working out/studying/self improvement again, whats the use since im gonna kill myself anyway"

 

[wiz_miz_03]

Same here. I'm going mental.

 

[Namelesa]

Yea I totally understand this. I myself have literally no access to effective methods and it has made me go insane and feel so trapped at times as I literally had no ways to recover or die meaning I just had to suffer with no way of escape. I am sorry you are in this situation too. Being in an accident would make it so much easier as something else would be doing the job of killing us. Have you looked into methods that aren't the ones you have listed? I don't know your full situation but for I literally have no good methods cus of being trapped home by my parents for my suicidalness.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as I just wish to peacefully cease existing as well, all I wish for is to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly be free from this existence, I just want to fall asleep permanently with no more pain and no more suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Romanticize]

pills are the way to overcome SI.

You can also use alcohol for this purpose. Most people do suicide under influ of alcohol, not sober.

 

[polm]

I can relate. I'm so sorry. I have one method but it's not the easiest to carry out. I'm terrified of falling and making myself sicker than I already am.

 

[kakdela]

pills are the way to overcome SI.

You can also use alcohol for this purpose. Most people do suicide under influ of alcohol, not sober.

pills are the way to overcome SI.

You can also use alcohol for this purpose. Most people do suicide under influ of alcohol, not sober.

What kind of pills, for example? I think trying alcohol might help, but I've never drunk it.

 

[csdfghjjk_user]

what about hanging

i feel insane because i have a method lmao, its like when i found out i could actually ctb i have no intention of getting better and im stuck in a loop of "should i start working out/studying/self improvement again, whats the use since im gonna kill myself anyway"

Ooh I get that feeling. Like for every interaction or self-improvement thought I think, well what's the point if I am going to ctb?

 

[bigballsniqqa]

Ooh I get that feeling. Like for every interaction or self-improvement thought I think, well what's the point if I am going to ctb?

yeah exactly

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i have a rifle loaded but i can't put it in my mouth and shoot , also a shotgun. fear of failure and or pain but part of my brain knows those are illogical thoughts

i'm thinking just one little movement down of my finger on the trigger and i'm out of this hell ...

this below is what i love, can offer me self deliverance, not many other things can except maybe SN but that's slower and could cause my si to call the ER :

 

[Kbeau]

pills are the way to overcome SI.

You can also use alcohol for this purpose. Most people do suicide under influ of alcohol, not sober.

Yep

 

[pointlessliving]

I hear ya…I am in the same boat- so deeply frustrating! Everyday I wish I get into a freak accident and die, or maybe my upcoming surgery will get complicated and I will die then…one can hope..

 

[Romanticize]

What kind of pills, for example? I think trying alcohol might help, but I've never drunk it.

Depressant pills. Depressant doesn't mean they cause depression, but they "depress" brain function. Means they slow down whole CNS (Central Nervous System). They slow it down to the point you are drugged up, half-conscious, half-asleep and not caring about shit. They give it to you in hospital before surgeries. Usually it's benzodiazepines, but for example opioids or gabapentinoids (like pregabalin) are also depressants. They work on GABA (Gamma Amino-burtylic Acid) in the brain. Alcohol is also a depressant in higher doses.
Those will usually not kill you (benzos) alone, unless you mix benzos with opioids, then you have a peaceful death, when you're unconscious, brain is forgetting breathing reflex.
But benzos have many functions. Those anti-anxiety, muscle-relaxing and sleep-inducing medications are very helpful as auxiliary / complementary meds to overcome SI, and actually complete the suicide act, and not chicken out and call for help. For the reasons listed above.

Hope it's clear now~

 

[Michelstaedter]

At times it gives me terrible desperation, I wish I had a fucking pill that would send me to the afterlife right now. I don't hesitate for a second to take it, I don't even get romantic or cry, I just want to take it and that's it, that's it, I don't want to live anymore, I'm getting sick of being alive, damn!!!!!!!!