Venting Not even suicidal anymore

[hoppybunny]

I'm honestly not even suicidal at all anymore. If i kill myself now it will be because i lost hope that anyone will hire me. I'll just never be able to move out at this point. Literally tried everything my only options are warehouse or move out rn with the job i hate, be cut off from my family and live with strangers or continue to suffer at home.

This is just shit. I have so mang thongs i want to do and this looming oppressive weight of not having a job is blocking everything

I want to make friends, and hang out with ppl and spend my own fucking money without bei g being and yelled at by my parents. Drive myself to work. Not have people constantly threaten to take my car away from me or throw all my things away.

I'm not even attracted to other people but I'm literally a grown ass adult and have never been on a date. I want to just try it for the experience or to see if I'll change my mind and i don't even have the option.

I hate being trapped with my parents my life is just wasting away

And i hate that my other option are just a different kind of suffering

Literally all it would take is one oerson just giving me a job. And I'm not even asking for a 100k coding job or whatever just a job that pays enough to live alone.

I hate this so much.

I just complain about the same things everyday.

My whole routine is sleep, apply to jobs, go to work, cry, complain, eat the same shit everyday cause I'm not allowed to have anything else or buy my own food, get yelled at, try to yse my useless brain and study for a certification that probably won't help my job prospects, reschedule my exam again, read rejection emaols, cry, scroll through social media and webtoons and just repeat over and over again.

It's been a fucking year since i graduated. This is so unfair. I'm sick of this.

 

[Musiclover338]

try security jobs, having a horrible job sucks ass and makes u want to harm yourself and lose hope.

some security companies will pay for ur licenses classes. My first security job (i lost by being dumb lol) all i did was clock in to work and sit for 8 hours and play video games on my laptop (lost it cuz i started clocking in and going back to my apartment to go to sleep lol) . look into securitas or allied universal if u dont like it u can always find another warehouse job

had one recently that paid 23 an hour but lost that by also being dumb and they wanted me gone anyway cuz i was lazy ( i didnt call them and tell them i was going to be late)

 

[hoppybunny]

try security jobs, having a horrible job sucks ass and makes u want to harm yourself and lose hope.

some security companies will pay for ur licenses classes. My first security job (i lost by being dumb lol) all i did was clock in to work and sit for 8 hours and play video games on my laptop (lost it cuz i started clocking in and going back to my apartment to go to sleep lol) . look into securitas or allied universal if u dont like it u can always find another warehouse job

had one recently that paid 23 an hour but lost that by also being dumb and they wanted me gone anyway cuz i was lazy ( i didnt call them and tell them i was going to be late)

Thank you for the advice.