is it odd that i keep praying that i'll find a solution to ctb by luck? i just keep hoping that i'll get some accidental injury i'll happily succumb to, or that i just won't wake up from passing out on a few low dose opioids (which i know is unlikely to happen). it just feels like its getting harder to find a quick way to ctb, and in the time that its taking me to decide my path / find my materials i just keep crying even more for someone to take me away. its like, i keep wanting to ctb, but even figuring out how to do so feels so unlikely of my success actually happening
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if_i_make_it
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i think this is how a lot of people deal with feelings of wanting to ctb. a sort of passive suicidality. its not an easy thing to carry out in any manner, not physically and not psychologically. I totally get what you mean.
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