Nembutal on the dark web

[everylensamirror]

I did exactly that when traveling to Peru, and I pulled it off!

I'm in Peru next month, would there be any way for you to let me know what clinic worked for you?

 

[Serena 2026]

I see thank you for replying! I honestly don't know what I'm gonna do anymore I'm so tired of living everything has an obstacle and I'm not strong enough... oh well
:')

I know exactly what you're going through and I'm so sorry—I felt that way my whole life—but don't give up; eventually, you'll find your strength and your peace!!

Estarei no Peru no próximo mês, haveria alguma maneira de você...

 

[LongJacks]

I know exactly what you're going through and I'm so sorry—I felt that way my whole life—but don't give up; eventually, you'll find your strength and your peace!!

Thanks, I'm too tired I have given up honestly a few years ago I tried everything but I keep hitting a wall everything keeps going against me and my family is like an anchor who keeps me dragged down

Why can't there be an easy way to CTB oof

 

[Serena 2026]

Eu sei exatamente o que você está passando e sinto muito — eu me sinto assim a vida toda — mas não desista; eventualmente, você encontrará sua força e sua paz!

I'm in Peru next month, would there be any way for you to let me know what clinic worked for you?

Many members have asked me this, and unfortunately, I can't say... for one thing, the high demand would cause problems for the veterinarian who kindly sold it to me, and it's also against SaSu's rules—I could get banned, and I want to stick around here a bit longer... I'm sorry!

 

[hughmun9]

I guess it doesn't matter since you came back from Peru. That mainly applies to people taking it locally in Peruvian hotels. It creates a huge problem for newcomers trying to buy N over there later.

Thank you for all your information. You have helped everyone a lot and you've answered a lot of questions.It's much appreciated. You are a courageous person to have done all this by yourself. I wish you peace in life or death whatever you decide.

Sadly it seems like Peru is no longer an option according to june 21st exit international's newsletter. They released the newsletter 3 weeks early just to warn people not to fly over to Peru anymore as Nembutal is no longer an over the counter option there. It's unfortunate since, not even 3 weeks ago this wasn't the case...

 

[everylensamirror]

Many members have asked me this, and unfortunately, I can't say... for one thing, the high demand would cause problems for the veterinarian who kindly sold it to me, and it's also against SaSu's rules—I could get banned, and I want to stick around here a bit longer... I'm sorry!

That makes sense, thanks for letting me know. I wouldn't want to break the rules. Would you be able to confirm what country you flew it into? I was thinking about trying to fly it into the us with shampoo bottles but am just paranoid of potentially tighter customs.

 

[Aflame5926]

thanks for posting this in the public part -...-

not to be a totally asshole around it but yeah . . . .

 

[volo]

Sadly it seems like Peru is no longer an option according to june 21st exit international's newsletter. They released the newsletter 3 weeks early just to warn people not to fly over to Peru anymore as Nembutal is no longer an over the counter option there. It's unfortunate since, not even 3 weeks ago this wasn't the case...

PN is not on the bleeding edge of these things any more, I'm afraid he's getting to be a bit off on some things..

 

[SASU-KE]

You know, SaSu-ke, I plan to leave on October 5th—my son's birthday; it'll be my gift to him... I raised my two children on my own, giving them the very best of everything—I worked hard to provide the best education, healthcare, entertainment, and more, and I gave them all the love I never received from my own parents. But friends led them into drugs, and that was another terrible phase of my life. I gave each child a house (retaining life interest for myself) so they could start their lives, which left me without savings. My son decided to move to London with an Italian woman, but he made it very clear that if I died, he wouldn't come to the funeral—it was too far and the trip cost too much—and he rented out his house. I suffered a cerebral thrombosis—as I've mentioned here on SaSu—and needed the money from his rent for six months to keep paying for my health insurance. Well, he was furious and cut off all contact with me. After six months, I managed to pay him back with interest, but he immediately sent it back and told me to shove it up my ass... and we haven't spoken since. It's been four years, and I cry every day missing him... Last Christmas, he came to Brazil, visited friends and some relatives, and didn't even let me know he was here. It was a horrible pain for a loving mother like me; that's when I started seriously contemplating suicide, and that is my main motivation... Wow, I've gone on too long—I'm sorry!

This is brutal.I didn't appreciate my mother enough when I was a kid, like most children do. But as time went on, I realized and we both became close friends. She passed away a few months ago.

It's been very difficult without her.

You are precious to your son. He just doesn't realize it yet. I hope for his sake he can change his ways and reconcile with you. He won't forgive himself when you're gone. I hope you have not given up on him completely and you can reach out to him once more. Give him a chance.I hope things work out between you.

Not everyone gets a mother like you.You're strong,sweet and caring.

 

[Aflame5926]

Why do you think you're an asshole?

i can be a little bit to much when voicing my opinion.

i think what you said it good but the problem is that its on te public part.
if more follows or goverments are checking it wont be a valid way pretty soon

 

[SASU-KE]

i can be a little bit to much when voicing my opinion.

i think what you said it good but the problem is that its on te public part.
if more follows or goverments are checking it wont be a valid way pretty soon

That's why what Serena was able to do was pretty special.She was careful not to give out any specifics either. And no one should ask her to.

Peru's already been cracked on hard. There will always be a way. If you're ready to go down there and really knock on doors and willing to lose some money in the process, you'll get it.

As Rocco Lampone said in Godfather 2. Difficult, but not impossible.

 

[Aflame5926]

It's already been cracked on hard. There will always be a way. If you're ready to go down there and really knock on doors and willing to lose some money in the process, you'll get it.

That's why what Serena was able to do was pretty special.She was careful not to give out any specifics either. And no one should ask her to.

As Rocco Lampone said in Godfather 2. Difficult, but not impossible.

i meant about the bottle of shampoo part >.< sorry i should have specified it

 

[SASU-KE]

Come to think of it, you might be right... a member acting as a spy could tip off the authorities—is that it? I still don't fully understand how the site and its acronyms work—I'm not exactly tech-savvy—and naively, I hadn't considered the risk of openly sharing my experience to help others in need... I'd actually really like to KNOW WHAT OTHER MEMBERS THINK so I don't make a mistake... now I'm feeling apprehensive... is there another way to post these important things without doing it publicly?

Ideally if you post on the private suicide discussion or sanctuary these posts won't be visible to lurkers.Those are hidden sub forums.

It's not just members acting as spies. I'm sure that some organizations have people enlisted as members over here monitoring stuff.

 

[Serena 2026]

This is brutal.I didn't appreciate my mother enough when I was a kid, like most children do. But as time went on, I realized and we both became close friends. She passed away a few months ago.

It's been very difficult without her.

You are precious to your son. He just doesn't realize it yet. I hope for his sake he can change his ways and reconcile with you. He won't forgive himself when you're gone. I hope you have not given up on him completely and you can reach out to him once more. Give him a chance.I hope things work out between you.

Not everyone gets a mother like you.You're strong,sweet and caring.

I am so sorry for your loss; you're a dear—you could have been my son... actually, he blocked me on all social media and on his phone, but I can still leave messages on WhatsApp... who knows, maybe after I die he'll unblock me, right? So, for four years now, I've been leaving him the most beautiful messages—things straight from my heart, lovely videos about mother and son, about forgiving him for what he did to me and all the sadness he caused, and telling him that I'll always be here with a warm heart and open arms for him to return to the nest, and that I'll always love him!! My mother was terrible to me, but I forgave her; I quit a job I'd held for 16 years to care for her at the end of her life. She wouldn't accept a care facility or a hired caregiver—she only wanted me—and that's how it was for two years, right up until she died!!

Ideally if you post on the private suicide discussion or sanctuary these posts won't be visible to lurkers.Those are hidden sub forums.

It's not just members acting as spies. I'm sure that some organizations have people enlisted as members over here monitoring stuff.

Mate, I don't even know how to access the hidden forums; could you teach me via private message, please? Is there any way to delete all of this from my post?

PN is not on the bleeding edge of these things any more, I'm afraid he's getting to be a bit off on some things..

I didn't quite understand what you meant—please forgive my ignorance—but what is PN?

 

[SASU-KE]

Mate, I don't even know how to access the hidden forums; could you teach me via private message, please? Is there any way to delete all of this from my post?

I messaged you, Serena.

I didn't quite understand what you meant—please forgive my ignorance—but what is PN?

Philip Nitschke is the author of that newsletter.

 

[Serena 2026]

I messaged you, Serena.

Philip Nitschke is the author of that newsletter.

Thanks, Sasu-Ke!!

 

[SASU-KE]

I am so sorry for your loss; you're a dear—you could have been my son... actually, he blocked me on all social media and on his phone, but I can still leave messages on WhatsApp... who knows, maybe after I die he'll unblock me, right? So, for four years now, I've been leaving him the most beautiful messages—things straight from my heart, lovely videos about mother and son, about forgiving him for what he did to me and all the sadness he caused, and telling him that I'll always be here with a warm heart and open arms for him to return to the nest, and that I'll always love him!! My mother was terrible to me, but I forgave her; I quit a job I'd held for 16 years to care for her at the end of her life. She wouldn't accept a care facility or a hired caregiver—she only wanted me—and that's how it was for two years, right up until she died!!

You were both a good daughter and a mother . Your son takes you for granted.I didn't take my mother for granted, but I didn't do enough either. I was confident enough in her health that I thought she would be around for a good amount of time. But once she has gone, I can scream into the void and she can't listen. I can say many words , but they will never reach her anymore.A person's death means their complete absence from you henceforth . They're never going to be around anymore.

I used to behave like your son from time to time. But never for a long time. But as my mother got older, I realized that I couldn't stay angry or even get angry with her anymore because If suddenly something happened to her, I would regret it.

I hope your son can have a change of heart.

 

[watereyes]

hello,
I've obtained N in peru as well, same as you @Serena 2026, through a different process but I have the same bottle. I have brought it back home.

I kindly want to warn you, please do not give that much information about how to do it publicly on this website, remember not everybody watching is in favour of the right to die. The few sources that are left and the information we have should only be shared to a small group of people, like us determined enough to search for it.

Also I'm very sorry to hear your story. What happened to you is very tragic.

I wish you luck and peace, I will probably use the N a bit later than you, likely during the winter.

Please be very careful. Remember, the more information we share, the more likely the sources will disappear for others.

 

[Serena 2026]

Você foi uma boa filha e uma boa mãe . Seu filho não te valoriza. Eu não dei minha mãe como garantida, mas também não fiz o suficiente. Eu tinha tanta confiança na saúde dela que pensei que ela estaria por perto por um bom tempo. Mas, uma vez que ela se foi, posso gritar para o vazio e ela não poderá ouvir. Posso dizer muitas palavras, mas elas nunca mais a alcançarão. A morte de uma pessoa significa sua completa ausência de sua vida para sempre. Ela nunca mais estará por perto.

Eu costumava me comportar como seu filho de vez em quando. Mas nunca por muito tempo. Conforme minha mãe foi envelhecendo, percebi que não poderia mais ficar bravo com ela, nem mesmo me irritar, porque se algo lhe acontecesse de repente, eu me arrependeria.

Espero que seu filho possa mudar de ideia.

hello,
I've obtained N in peru as well, same as you @Serena 2026, through a different process but I have the same bottle. I have brought it back home.

I kindly want to warn you, please do not give that much information about how to do it publicly on this website, remember not everybody watching is in favour of the right to die. The few sources that are left and the information we have should only be shared to a small group of people, like us determined enough to search for it.

Also I'm very sorry to hear your story. What happened to you is very tragic.

I wish you luck and peace, I will probably use the N a bit later than you, likely during the winter.

Please be very careful. Remember, the more information we share, the more likely the sources will disappear for others.

Eyes, just a quick question, if I may... if you had already bought the N—and confirmed that to me—why did you still want to know about my contact? I was curious!

 

[watereyes]

Eyes, just a quick question, if I may... if you had already bought the N—and confirmed that to me—why did you still want to know about my contact? I was curious!

Because I would like to have as many sources as possible, in case my attempt goes wrong or my N expires prematurely. If that happens, I will go back to Peru and search for it again. I dont even know if my source is still up. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

 

[SASU-KE]

Because I would like to have as many sources as possible, in case my attempt goes wrong or my N expires prematurely. If that happens, I will go back to Peru and search for it again. I dont even know if my source is still up. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

You were able to go from France to Peru . Do you speak Spanish?
I have no problem traveling there, but the language is the biggest issue.

 

[watereyes]

You were able to go from France to Peru . Do you speak Spanish?
I have no problem traveling there, but the language is the biggest issue.

Yes I do speak spanish

 

[SASU-KE]

Yes I do speak spanish

OK, that makes sense. That's my biggest hurdle.

 

[Serena 2026]

OK, that makes sense. That's my biggest hurdle.

Don't think like that, Sasuke. I only speak Portuguese; I communicate on this site using a translator. I've traveled to several countries alone using just a voice translation app—and sometimes hand gestures, haha—and it works, believe me! The people in Peru are simple and shy but welcoming; you'll be lucky to go there, believe me!

 

[SASU-KE]

Don't think like that, Sasuke. I only speak Portuguese; I communicate on this site using a translator. I've traveled to several countries alone using just a voice translation app—and sometimes hand gestures, haha—and it works, believe me! The people in Peru are simple and shy but welcoming; you'll be lucky to go there, believe me!

Ohhh .I was assuming you spoke Spanish. I just realized you spoke Portuguese. I have hope now.

Thank you!I'll take a Pic of my dog as well and point to that

 

[wyo777]

I was saying it plenty of times, it still can be purchased in Peru, even without a vet. I was there, i know , or i used to know people who went there after me and succesfully brought it back to Europe, USA.
You need a source and some money, thats it.

 

[SadCryingBunny]

So you can find almost anything on the dark web if you look hard enough. Would it be possible for me to find an actual Nembutal dealer on the dark web? Sn isn't peaceful at all, and is already difficult enough to source. And finding an sn seller is becoming more and more difficult nowadays. So if I turn to the dark web and try to find a nembutal dealer could I be successful? Or is it just a terrible idea.

Why not nitrogen gas? I hear it's the most peaceful.

 

[Aflame5926]

its a shame there is a demand for this but just no supply :(

anybody is searching for a job? (dont take this serious. its a mission impossible and you shouldnt think about this)

 

[wyo777]

hello,
I've obtained N in peru as well, same as you @Serena 2026, through a different process but I have the same bottle. I have brought it back home.

I kindly want to warn you, please do not give that much information about how to do it publicly on this website, remember not everybody watching is in favour of the right to die. The few sources that are left and the information we have should only be shared to a small group of people, like us determined enough to search for it.

Also I'm very sorry to hear your story. What happened to you is very tragic.

I wish you luck and peace, I will probably use the N a bit later than you, likely during the winter.

Please be very careful. Remember, the more information we share, the more likely the sources will disappear for others.

Tha k you for that

 

[EmptyBottle]

hello,
I've obtained N in peru as well, same as you @Serena 2026, through a different process but I have the same bottle. I have brought it back home.

Wow, surprised it could travel over the borders... which year was it bought?

I kindly want to warn you, please do not give that much information about how to do it publicly on this website, remember not everybody watching is in favour of the right to die. The few sources that are left and the information we have should only be shared to a small group of people, like us determined enough to search for it.

Definitely.. imo, sources shouldn't be DM'd to anyone, those who want to CTB with it are more likely to go out of their way to find it.

Also I'm very sorry to hear your story. What happened to you is very tragic.

I wish you luck and peace, I will probably use the N a bit later than you, likely during the winter.

mmm, feel free to share some fun fact or whatever u'd like us to remember.

Please be very careful. Remember, the more information we share, the more likely the sources will disappear for others.

As well as a small risk of prosecution for assisting CTB, if it can be proven (eg forensics potentially going over DMs from any member who CTB'd and failed to wipe traces of SaSu from their devices)