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I've done my fair share of research. And from my knowledge nembutal is very difficult to access in the uk. Sn is somewhat more accessible. But I've heard it's quite uncomfortable and painful, and I would much prefer my exit being more swift and peaceful. It's honestly so unfair and upsetting. I've considered other methods like partial hanging and the train method. But partial hanging would likely also be uncomfortable, and with the train method. Well, I wouldn't wanna traumatise a bunch of innocent people. Lol. If anyone reading this knows of any ways for me to obtain nembutal, or can recommend me other peaceful methods. Please do so, and I would really appreciate it. God bless anyone reading this. ❤️
 
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uklad38

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I don't think SN is that uncomfortable from what I've read if you take the other things along with it.

I've been searching quite a while and Nembutal seems impossible to get in the uk or and Ireland.

I've ordered SN just awaiting delivery. I don't think you'll get Nembutal
 
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I don't think SN is that uncomfortable from what I've read if you take the other things along with it.

I've been searching quite a while and Nembutal seems impossible to get in the uk or and Ireland.

I've ordered SN just awaiting delivery. I don't think you'll get Nembutal
Ah well that really sucks I guess.. But thank you for your response. ❤️
 
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uklad38

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Ah well that really sucks I guess.. But thank you for your response. ❤️
No worries, yeah I'd rather Nembutal myself but it seems impossible to find and SN seems accessible and easy to order so…
 
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I've done my fair share of research. And from my knowledge nembutal is very difficult to access in the uk. Sn is somewhat more accessible. But I've heard it's quite uncomfortable and painful, and I would much prefer my exit being more swift and peaceful. It's honestly so unfair and upsetting. I've considered other methods like partial hanging and the train method. But partial hanging would likely also be uncomfortable, and with the train method. Well, I wouldn't wanna traumatise a bunch of innocent people. Lol. If anyone reading this knows of any ways for me to obtain nembutal, or can recommend me other peaceful methods. Please do so, and I would really appreciate it. God bless anyone reading this. ❤️
I feel like a lot of us going for SN prefers Nembutal, as it's sort of the holy grail method in the PPH. Unfortunately it's basically impossible to obtain at least in any European or North American country, since they've all caught on that people are using it to CTB. I have heard of people getting it if they are a veterinarian themselves or is friends with one (who is willing to support your CTBing decision ofc). Outside of the vet industry I don't think it's used or sold anywhere.
 
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I have heard of people getting it if they are a veterinarian themselves or is friends with one (who is willing to support your CTBing decision ofc). Outside of the vet industry I don't think it's used or sold anywhere.
LF veterinarian friend.

jokes aside won't that harm them in stead? like isnt that attempt for assisting?
 

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