WillItPass

[willitpass2]

I am WilItPass. Anyone who has been on here any length of time knows of me. I wrote the non-methods thread. I was a member from March 20, 2020. I left back in the winter after yet another near fatal attempt and lost my account. I've lost access to that email so was unable to reinstate it. My physical health has continued to decline. I've had multiple severe infections. Yet it seems my body, despite continuing to get sicker and sicker, refuses to die. I currently am battling another infection that is going untreated. Everything hurts horrifically. But I'm not fucking dying. It's exhausting. I'm meant to be getting a port soon due to my veins becoming inaccessible. I can only hope that maybe then I will be able to finally get my reprieve. It would allow me direct access to lethally injecting something straight into my heart. I just don't know anymore. I have survived so many things I shouldn't have. It doesn't make sense. It is a cruel, cruel fucking joke from the universe the way I cannot fucking die. I'm so angry. I'm so numb. I'm so tired.

 

[hdead]

Darn. All I can say is I'm so sorry you have to suffer through all of this. I hope you can find your peace sooner than later.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

That sounds frightening. Really frightening.

 

[_Gollum_]

Appreciate the update, we were all worried about what twisted fates might have found you, whether you may have "entered a new circle of MH hell" in @Hystearical 's words. I am very sorry to hear that your body has not let you escape this prison yet. If it hurts this bad to hear about your trials and tribulations, I can't imagine what it's like to actually live it.

Hope you find your way out some day xoxo

 

[Forveleth]

Damn dude. I saw your last attempt thread and hoped so much you had found peace. I am so sorry that is not the case.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Many members were concerned about you following your last attempt. I'm so sorry you're still suffering so much.

 

[CatLvr]

GIRL!! Omg I have missed you SO much!!

Bless your heart -- I am ... I am at a loss for words. You have been in my thoughts so much. I am so sorry you are still feeling bad, but I'd be a lying bitch to say I am not absolutely beside myself that you are still here. You and Ophelia were two of the first friends I made here. Gosh ... How is your kitty??