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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
552
I want to live a fulfilling, happy life but I can't. I need to ctb to prevent years of suffering.
 
Javi

Javi

Member
Sep 8, 2022
7
Does anyone else ever feel like you NEED to die but don't necessarily always want to? I've been getting glimpses of hope after months of planning to die but my whole life I've felt like I need to be dead so I am going to try anyway. It's not a voice in my head or a delusion, I just feel it so deeply to my core that I am meant to kill myself.
I want to die. Over the last 4-5 years i have been living in hell. Every day i feel pain and sadness. So, yes, i need to die more than anything
 
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LifeCanBeCruel

Member
Jan 2, 2023
59
I want my pain to be treated and go on to live forever.
 
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Lavender Dreams

Lavender Dreams

serial vapist
Nov 5, 2022
72
Very few people have what I'd define as a true desire to die, from what I've encountered. Most don't wish to live in the circumstances placed upon them, and either there genuinely is no way out, or they can't figure it out at a given moment. That's why being conflicted is natural.

I both need and want to die, while simultanously desiring to stay for a couple of reasons. Had I been blessed with the ability to be content when complely alone, maybe it would have been different.
 
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stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
Very few people have what I'd define as a true desire to die, from what I've encountered. Most don't wish to live in the circumstances placed upon them, and either there genuinely is no way out, or they can't figure it out at a given moment. That's why being conflicted is natural.

I both need and want to die, while simultanously desiring to stay for a couple of reasons. Had I been blessed with the ability to be content when complely alone, maybe it would have been different.
Great insight. Thank you for sharing. ❤️
 
Nanako

Nanako

Experienced
Dec 24, 2018
288
I don't really want to die, but my circumstances make living too painful and stressful.
 
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peacetime

Student
Dec 27, 2022
114
I never had social connections so its just a want for me, not a feeling like I need to. i dont understand that feeling of needing to die at all.
 

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