I (M22) am a terrible person, I deserve to die and have been told I do by the people I hurt, I know its the right thing to do to make it up to them and society at large for all the people I have hurt.
However there is one thing that always keep pulling me away from doing the right thing and catching the bus and that is my family, both my mother and father are still alive, and
since I have been suicidal for over a decade they've told me they would never be able to cope with me killing myself and described in detail how terrible it would be if I did. But I know from a moral perspective my death would be the best thing for the most people, but they would end up getting hurt still. I know what I need to do but I just can't seem to push myself to do it, would anyone have any advice on how to push myself towards doing the right thing?
However there is one thing that always keep pulling me away from doing the right thing and catching the bus and that is my family, both my mother and father are still alive, and
since I have been suicidal for over a decade they've told me they would never be able to cope with me killing myself and described in detail how terrible it would be if I did. But I know from a moral perspective my death would be the best thing for the most people, but they would end up getting hurt still. I know what I need to do but I just can't seem to push myself to do it, would anyone have any advice on how to push myself towards doing the right thing?
