violet.4321
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- Jun 8, 2026
- 9
I've been struggling with this for the last years. I have a bad habit of pushing any friends away when I feel like ctb, but everytime I didn't go through with it and ended op lonelier than before. I don't have that many people close in life, my family doesn't know about how I feel and doesn't understand either way. After I told some friends about my feelings on ctb I pushed them away, because now they know too much and it would only hurt them. But as time goes by, I don't have anyone left to talk to. Is this actually the way to go? Pushing everyone away so that when I finally ctb they wouldn't care? I've made myself such an unlikable person, but I don't know if it made me feel better in the end, because I also want to have friends till the day I ctb. I don't know when I will do it, but I'm sure it's what I want.
How do you deal with your family, friends or other close people? Do they know, do they care? I'm curious about your experience.
How do you deal with your family, friends or other close people? Do they know, do they care? I'm curious about your experience.
