need advise/help

[izzienae]

This is my first post here, not sure how to go about it.

I just had a conversation with my parents. It started out with them finding food in my room (i overeat to cope) ended up with me having a panic attack and confessing i SH and think about committing. They kind of cared, but still ended up insulting my looks and blamed me for everything, while the only reason i want to CTB is because of them. They are gonna call my therapist and she will probably be here tomorrow. Im scared theyre gonna lock me up in some sort of mental health facility or that im gonna be made to live with my dad (theyve been threatening with this for a bit)

Im not sure what to do or to expect. Honestly i just want to CTB but im too scared to do it.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Can I ask how old you are?

It sounds like you have crummy parents, at least in some regards. It's tough because most of the time with crummy parents they are who they are and you have to decide whether it's worth it to deal with them as such or cut ties. Efforts to change them will likely be futile.

When your therapist comes strongly deny that you have any serious intention of CTB.

 

[Roseate]

I don't think they're going to lock you up unless you let them know you have a method planned or that you've planned it (been there). They will ask if have made a plan or have a plan first. Then depending on what you say, they might ask you if you've ever had a set date. But if you just have thoughts without any plan, I don't think they'll lock you up for that. The therapist will probably talk to you and try to find a coping method for when you're having those thoughts or feeling. About the SH, they will definitely give you a "healthier method" like breathing when you're feeling down, ice (it supposedly give you the same feeling), or whatever. And about your parents, it's tough because some people don't understand what it's like to live with such a scary and difficult disease. When they insult you, take a beat and I know it will be hard. Just take it a day at a time. Good luck. Oh and welcome here.

 

[exploitedbacteria]

It sounds like your parents are abusive. I would do your best to find your own way away from them. Chances are things will only get worse as time goes on, the sooner you cut them out of your life the sooner things will at least get a little better. So many people in a similar situation, none of this would happen if people would stop reproducing.

 

[lastwords.com]

Yeah I wanna add to what @LaVieEnRose said, I completely agree, you'll be better off keeping the intentions to CTB quiet if a therapist comes visit you, because if you don't then they'll deffo want to lock you up in a mental hospital and keep a close eye on you for ages.

 

[izzienae]

Can I ask how old you are?

It sounds like you have crummy parents, at least in some regards. It's tough because most of the time with crummy parents they are who they are and you have to decide whether it's worth it deal with them as such or cut ties. Efforts to change them will likely be futile.

When your therapist comes strongly deny that you have any serious intention of CTB.

I turned 18 start of this year, so theres no chance for me to move out and cut ties with them soon, which is the only thing id think would help me.
Ill deny anything serious, thank you

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I turned 18 start of this year, so theres no chance for me to move out and cut ties with them soon, which is the only thing id think would help me.
Ill deny anything serious, thank you

Well it's a good goal to work towards. Even if you include them in your life getting some space is definitely critical.