DeusVult
Death Fetish
- Aug 18, 2024
- 50
I've been trying different drugs lately, to try and get me out of my depression and suicidal thoughts. Today I was trying Ecstasy, it was blissful, I felt happy, and everything felt so nice and comforting. When the peak of the Ecstasy ended, I took some Ketamine. What followed is that I've likely fell into a K-hole, the Ketamine was made much more potent by combining it with Ecstasy.
I started loosing my grip on reality, and soon found myself outside of my body, just a consciousness existing somewhere in space, it felt like I was there for days, time wasn't making sense, I'd feel like I'd experienced several hours passing in mere minutes, or the time slowing down to a crawl. The whole experience was insane, I was being completely ripped out of reality and was just thoughts without a body. But it got a bit scary, I felt like my consciousness was disintegrating, like I was leaving the universe, and existence was fading into a void. I was basically feeling like I was dying, and at the moment it felt like I was gonna die, I had completely lost contact with reality couldn't perceive anything, I was stuck in a limbo and time felt frozen. I didn't think I'd ever return back to reality, I thought that was it, I was surely gonna die. Overall a pretty cool experience, I feel like I know what it feels like to die now. I didn't have a body, I couldn't move, my mind was somewhere else, just experiencing a slow death, with time stopping completely, and me just observing the whole universe, and slowly losing more control over my senses. Eventually I started coming back, and regaining a seat in my body, able to move again, but vision was still completely messed up.
Anyways, my depression got better, I feel more connected to the world and to myself. And the Ecstasy when not mixed with other drugs was amazing, made me feel all happy and able to enjoy anything greatly. The Ketamine is also helping with my mood a lot, and is used at hospitals as an anti-depressant in some places, not just a street drug. You should give them a try, before you die.
I started loosing my grip on reality, and soon found myself outside of my body, just a consciousness existing somewhere in space, it felt like I was there for days, time wasn't making sense, I'd feel like I'd experienced several hours passing in mere minutes, or the time slowing down to a crawl. The whole experience was insane, I was being completely ripped out of reality and was just thoughts without a body. But it got a bit scary, I felt like my consciousness was disintegrating, like I was leaving the universe, and existence was fading into a void. I was basically feeling like I was dying, and at the moment it felt like I was gonna die, I had completely lost contact with reality couldn't perceive anything, I was stuck in a limbo and time felt frozen. I didn't think I'd ever return back to reality, I thought that was it, I was surely gonna die. Overall a pretty cool experience, I feel like I know what it feels like to die now. I didn't have a body, I couldn't move, my mind was somewhere else, just experiencing a slow death, with time stopping completely, and me just observing the whole universe, and slowly losing more control over my senses. Eventually I started coming back, and regaining a seat in my body, able to move again, but vision was still completely messed up.
Anyways, my depression got better, I feel more connected to the world and to myself. And the Ecstasy when not mixed with other drugs was amazing, made me feel all happy and able to enjoy anything greatly. The Ketamine is also helping with my mood a lot, and is used at hospitals as an anti-depressant in some places, not just a street drug. You should give them a try, before you die.
