Yes she did; this situation feels like a comedy sketch.
I know I'm just as confused as you are
It's actually quite common for people work in this field to be mentally unwell/or unstable (suicidal, even) as well - half of them, that might be one good or strong reason to delve into the profession (in the first place!) . . . I believe my vet friend, had said, upon completion of her studies for training, that her's had one of the highest suicide rates of them all~ / so anyway? Strange as it seems, it is maybe not so unusual or hard to understand, and then believe, once you begin to examine it in this regard. I'd imagine, even those who had not been in this boat, may find themselves in it at some point just due to the nature of the beast, at their office, so to speak! But as far as interacting in this way with you and almost speaking as if a peer in this endeavor, I don't know, unless this is some atypical strategy or tactic/technique on her behalf, something of a twist on reverse-psychology, perhaps? Then I only see all kinds of compromises in her professional boundaries, ethics, standards/methods & ways: I'm missing (out) on the word, but hopefully it's there - somewhere~ in between the lines! Ha. Sorry, you're having to deal with this: how equal parts awkward, and uncomfortable it all must be for you? Best wishes as you navigate through this. . .
I want to see a positive spin on this because clearly you do, but my gut says red flag. She's got more power than you do in this situation…you could be forcibly hospitalized on her word. She's acting VERY peculiarly for a therapist, in fact she seems to have kicked the whole rulebook to the curb. What strange way will she jump next, and will you get hurt by it?
Obviously you've got to listen to your gut rather than mine, but I think if it were me, I'd be cagey about revealing anything more about the SN, and cautious with this therapist in general. It's natural to want to respond to openness with openness, but you're in a situation where criminal and civil laws apply first and foremost. The usual "rules" of purely social interactions are secondary at best, and may turn out not to apply at all. (The same caveats apply in interactions with the police as well, if it comes to that.)
See, now that was my first instinct, or gut reaction as well. Is what are the status of her credentials & licensing or how is she approved by law to practice, so to speak? Are we sure she's entirely legit. Dont' just trus t the nice degree hanging in the sparkling shiny & clean frame behind her desk. Which must be mad e of solid oak. Is this a "private" practice, by chance?
Hey you can be a wounded healer
You know, it might be a little bit like those who are suffering from substance abuse, being treated at facilities where the counselors & staff are themselves, former chemical dependency subscribers.
This might be a trend considering that I'm a psychology major.
You just need to know all the language to avoid
It actually can be incredibly advantageous if you do go through with it (the degree, and not ctb). As I think it give you incredible insight, into the mind of a severely depressed individual, and suicidal patient as well. And to also have some compassion, and sympathy for ... that is other wise / or can be: severely, "lacking,' in other quarters of the mental health team of professionals in charge of your care.
I suppose I can see why everyone is freaking out but from what you've told us about her- she believes people have the right to end their own lives. It seems entirely possible that she isn't deeply suicidal but like many of us- she isn't relishing old age. Maybe she bought it for future use. She can likely see all the media storm around it and is maybe predicting it will only become harder and harder to obtain- so, like many of us, she's getting it while she can to keep her options open. Just a theory of course.
I actually think I'd prefer to have a straight talking therapist rather than play the peculiar game of witholding the ideation bit for fear of heavy handed responses. Why shouldn't someone who is possibly suicidal themselves not be able to help another person? Especially if they have been trained to. They know you're seeing them to try and cope better with your life. Maybe to make it better. They can surely still give you advice on how to do that but at the same time, be honest and realistic about how you're actually feeling. I think I'd prefer a more realistic approach to an authorative, stern one.
This would be highly interesting, indeed. If your theory proved to be correct. Only insofar as, she must be skirting some huge professional rules. Or like, how doctors have to do that ..."hippocratic oath?"
The only way this would make sense for me is if you were from France
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Can you please explain why? I'm too stupid & naive to understand..;)
This seems (pardon my French) hella sus.
Your therapist is probably just trying to lull you into a false sense of security by relating to you in some way. Maybe that's what they were trained to do. Even if they really did order their own SN it's weird they'd keep it if they don't intend to use it.
Or maybe she just wants to test/try it out, at a safe dosage of course, with which she can then ascertain a better understanding of her clients/n' patients. You know, somewhat akin to how the cops or police, are required to be tased & pepper sprayed? :D
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