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[H.O.Xan]

Decided to make this an individual post just in case someone wants to know more abt me (Ik there's a thread for this stuff). ight so i think it's time i posted this here, so anything else i post forward will make more sense. I've been here for quite a while, and i think this is necessary atp. I'll keep it short.

i won't disclose anything personal other than I'm 18y.o. I endured a rough childhood for as long as i can remember, physically, mentally. Being suicidal since i was 10 y.o. IK, it's been a while eh? High school only worsened that. i can't make ppl understand wut i went thru, since u'd need to b experiencing an uncut version of my life to get it.

Got a horde of personality disorders. A high-functioning suicidal guy if u will. Physical - none. Can't sleep, ever. Restricted freedom, and i need to b smart abt it. I can never relax. that's y i feel like I'm stuck in limbo btwn life and death. Hobbies - movies, books, guitar. I had more but depression is a b*tch lmfao. Got that "dead" look in my eyes. I try my best to hide it.

A lot contributed to me wanting to CTB. I'm fighting it out for now. But idk for how long.

Thx for reading. I'll need advice with smth in the future so stay tuned (hopefully i don't sound like a shampoo commercial)

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be tiring what you go through, it's certainly such an awful world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own. But anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.