Discussion Anyone else constantly at war with their thoughts?

[lastappleonearth]

Idk, it feels like I'm fighting my own thoughts and in extension my own mind literally all the time. Like my mind forces me to think the most awful and unpleasant things almost all the time. That's why I need to have constant background noice, otherwise I'd just go insane. Tho sometimes it already feels like I'm insane, I can't control my fucking thoughts and if I specifically try to not think abt a certain person for example, it just makes it worse. I just want my thoughts to be quiet atp or think abt happy things at least . It's exhausting, like I get physically tired from thinking

 

[discernment]

Yeah. My own brain hates me. I can't just exist in peace without listening to music or something in the background through my headphones at all times, and even then I feel like i'm going crazy a lot of the time lol

 

[lastappleonearth]

Yeah. My own brain hates me. I can't just exist in peace without listening to music or something in the background through my headphones at all times, and even then I feel like i'm going crazy a lot of the time lol

Yeah I get that, tho music helps a lil, especially if it's on super high volume. Idk, I just try to distract myself as best as I can

 

[hdead]

I do relate. It's a war sometimes and it's never really quiet. Unless benzos, those are little magic tablets, but it's worth to be careful with those otherwise the little benzo devil comes to get you.

Take care lil homie. You're not alone in this.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I do relate. It's a war sometimes and it's never really quiet. Unless benzos, those are little magic tablets, but it's worth to be careful with those otherwise the little benzo devil comes to get you.

Take care lil homie. You're not alone in this.

Thx man, yeah benzos do help, but they're so addictive it's insane. You take care as well

 

[discernment]

Yeah I get that, tho music helps a lil, especially if it's on super high volume. Idk, I just try to distract myself as best as I can

Definitely, music is one of the few good parts of life

 

[lastappleonearth]

Definitely, music is one of the few good parts of life

Very true

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Music doesn't even help with my intrusive thoughts. Nothing does. You are lucky to have something that helps.

 

[HopeNotLong]

All the damnnn time, and background noise doesn't help

 

[lastappleonearth]

All the damnnn time, and background noise doesn't help

Im sorry, that sucks, any other way you cope?

 

[Pluto]

 

[thelostautistic]

Absolutely. Not only do I deal with suicidal thoughts but I also deal with a lot of intrusive thoughts. It's hard to keep my mind calm when my brain is imagining the most horrendous scenarios.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Absolutely. Not only do I deal with suicidal thoughts but I also deal with a lot of intrusive thoughts. It's hard to keep my mind calm when my brain is imagining the most horrendous scenarios.

Yeah it's exhausting, constantly imagining the worst case scenario for literally everything is awful. I'd love to not think this way

 

[HopeNotLong]

Im sorry, that sucks, any other way you cope?

I just have to take it... let it eat me alive. Let's hope we find peace soon.