Help My protocol and so on. Brit 💔❤️‍🩹

[Britney Spears]

Fasting for 8 to 12 hours
- 4 hours without drinking water
- 1 hour before: 2 grams of paracetamol
- 45 minutes before: 3 x 10 g of methotrexate
- 30 minutes before: 36 x 10 mg of diazepam (356 mg) crushed in a mortar with a little 5 ml of water.
- 15 minutes before: 30 x 0.5 mg of rivotril (150 mg) crushed in a mortar with a little 5 ml of water.
- 10 minutes before: Prepare sn beverages: 3 glasses of 25 g, 26 g, and 27 g of sn beverages dissolved in 50 mg of water.
- 0 minutes before: 1 glass of 25 g of sn beverages dissolved in 50 mg of water.
(No antacids)

(The maximum time I'll be alone is 4 hours. I'll try to find a longer period; it will be impossible.)
I ordered my SN in January. I have the DMC one from when it was on their original website. I'm afraid it's lost its purity, but I don't know. I've preserved it as best I can.
In any case, I'll add more SN if it goes on for more than this year. 26g to the second cup and 27g to the third. The first cup will be 25g

I have a tolerance to benzodiazepines because I take them daily. Back then, I was taking diazepam and Rivotril. I'll start taking them soon so they can take effect. If I take those amounts at after, I'm more likely to vomit until they take effect. Okay?
I have a lot of fears, and I've planned for it as best I can, analyzing different protocols and following guidelines. My biggest fear is my sn expire since I ordered it in January, and the timeframe I have, and whether or not it will work. I know there are so many things and conflicting opinions; due to my illness, I can't remember them, etc. Every day I feel like doing it on impulse, but I've learned that, thanks to Sasu and all of you, I won't do it impulsively. I will soon post a goodbye thread explaining my situation. When the time and opportunity comes (I don't know when that will be), I will. I won't be able to update when I do; I will just post a goodbye photo. The day I do it. If I don't post three months later, please delete my account, moderators
If I could give myself more time alone, it would be better, but it's impossible due to my overprotectiveness and suicidal tendencies. My parents have removed my locks and other things. My illness and cognitive decline are getting worse every day, and I can't plan well, except to endure every second, minute, and hour of my illness. But I'm doing my best to plan. I welcome any opinions or recommendations for my protocol.
I'm afraid my NS will be ruined, and the time I'll have alone, but I won't have any other choice.
I'm still with you and I'll stay here. I can't understand the information, retain it, or comprehend it. I love you. I welcome any opinions on my protocol.
At some point, when they're gone, I will. When? I don't know; maybe in a year or more, or sooner, who knows. They won't leave me alone for a second. But I have the plan, and I hope it will work for me in four hours. My survival instinct is shattered, and I've posted threads about autopsies, catalepsies, and the like, but that's the least of my worries when I want to get going as soon as possible. Sorry for the long post. Hugs and love.
My protocol and all that. Brit.
Sorry for the translation. I'm Spanish.

 

[Corovaner]

We are with you, whatever you decide.

 

[Britney Spears]

P.S. I'll take the SIM card out of my phone and put it away. I'll plan everything well for when the pro-lifers arrive and save my crime scenes. There will be nothing on my phone, and I'll make a plan to fool them and delay the diagnosis when they find me. I'll label SN's drinks as azide and put crushed pills next to them and a yellow bottle of whiskey to fool them

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
wish you the best
sending you hugs and love

 

[bankai]

God,Brit/Daenerys is dying,my hearts breaking.I knew this day would come as soon as I saw you storing SN in the fridge. Which is why I never messaged you directly, but I would just post on your profile page.i just couldn't.


See, The thing is. You used to make a lot of hilarious posts, crazy posts when you joined and I used to laugh at them. But then my heart broke and I felt terrible because I knew why you were making those posts. I knew what was the real reason. It wasn't to make jokes. Or to be funny. It was because of the medication.

Not sure how much longer I do this.

 

[FishRain3469]

Thoughts and Prayers to you in whatever may happen. Godspeed. ♥ ☀

 

[Britney Spears]

God,Brit/Daenerys is dying,my hearts breaking.I knew this day would come as soon as I saw you storing SN in the fridge. Which is why I never messaged you directly, but I would just post on your profile page.i just couldn't.


See, The thing is. You used to make a lot of hilarious posts, crazy posts when you joined and I used to laugh at them. But then my heart broke and I felt terrible because I knew why you were making those posts. I knew what was the real reason. It wasn't to make jokes. Or to be funny. It was because of the medication.

Not sure how much longer I do this.

Thank you, darling, you're a sweetheart. No more jokes, pranks, and crazy posts. Since my family admitted me to the psychiatric hospital and I was there for two weeks, I've done some soul searching, and I've come out worse off. Before, it was all a joke until I saw the severity of the situation. My options are: end up in a psychiatric hospital for life with my pain and suffering, or CTB, prepare myself, and do the best I can.
When I got out, things got serious, and now I have to do the best I can for when my time comes. I'll accept the consequences, but I can't take it anymore. I'm getting worse every day, darling. Or 45 years of suffering in a psychiatric hospital

 

[Britney Spears]

Can anyone comment on my protocol? I'd really appreciate it. A hug. I'll make a separate post

 

[quietwoods]

I know you say you have a high tolerance for benzos, but someone with a high tolerance for benzos as well took 170mg Valium only 10 minutes before the SN and was unable to take the SN due to sedation/passing out. There was some oxy mixed in with the valium, but still. You have double the amount of benzos. When you crush it in liquid it hits quick especially at your dosage.

I would personally move it from 30 mins to 5 minutes. SN symptoms typically don't start occurring until 3-5 minutes after ingestion, by that point the sedative mixture should be kicking in full force and you should be drifting off to sleep.

*Note: not a doctor*

SN protocol for tonight

Any suggestions are welcome: 1. Fast for 8 hours (during which I took 10mg Meto and 1 x 4mg Ondansatron wafer) 2. 10pm: Begin water fast 3. 11pm: 2x500mg Paracetamol 4. 11:20pm: take 3 x 10mg Meto and 1 x 4mg Ondansatron wafer 5: Prepare 25mg of SN in 50-100ml of water (have a spare cup...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Britney Spears]

@quietwoods You're right. I'm also taking clonazepam (Rivotril) and diazepam, which will be too strong for the protocol. My biggest fear is vomiting. I used to think about Xanax, but because of my anxiety, I've now been prescribed clonazepam. Thank you so much, honey

 

[Lyn]

It's heartbreaking to see this post.
I'm really sorry you're carrying all of this.
I wish there were words or actions that could ease even a little of what you're feeling right now. I can hear how much you've thought everything through, how deeply you've tried to prepare and protect what matters to you, even in something as heartbreaking as this.

As for the protocol... I see you mentioning methotrexate in it. But I also see Metoclopramide on the photo you've shared.
Which one are you going to use?

Because that dose of methotrexate can be dangerous in case benzos hit too fast and you won't be able to take sn for this or any other reason.
Methotrexate is rather toxic and can induce nausea.
And I doubt it can serve any purpose here.

But I hope you meant Metoclopramide.

Hugs, if you'll accept them. I'll stay with you here as long as you want.

 

[Britney Spears]

@Lyn
Yes, darling, I'm sorry, I always have to translate, and sometimes the translator lets me down. It's metoclopramide. The dosage is 3x10, and I'll take it right away. I just want to stop suffering and get out of here. I can't take it anymore. I don't know when I'll be able to. Hugs, darling

 

[Seaghost]

I wish you the best and a gently sleep...

 

[bambibambam]

when i saw this thread my heart sank a little bit. i knew you'd post this soon but i was hoping maybe, it wouldn't be too soon. you're so angelic and sweet and talking to you brightens my day it's so unfair..you deserve the world but the world does not deserve you..i will join you shortly after i promise. my heart is so heavy….

 

[Britney Spears]

@bambibambam Thank you, darling. Don't be sad. Thank you for being so kind and wonderful to me. I adore you. I had to post this, and sooner or later I will. I have no choice. I have to stop suffering; I can't stand it anymore. Even if I go, you'll always be in my heart, and sasu, in me, with love, Brit

 

[wham311]

How the hell do you find the coursge

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

25 g, 26 g, and 27 g

can i ask why going from 25, 26 to 27? :)

 

[divinemistress36]

Im so sorry it has come to this. I will miss your posts . I hope you find peace <3

 

[Britney Spears]

@divinemistress36 I'll miss you too. I'm still here. I just have to find the opportunity to be alone and do it. Hugs, darling

can i ask why going from 25, 26 to 27? :)

I'd leave the first cup as normal at 25g, but I slightly increased the amount in the other two in case the purity dropped. I don't know if this is correct

 

[Alexandra_]

My dear, I wish you all the best. Let it be as you wish. I am sorry that so much suffering has fallen to your lot - it is terribly unfair. But I understand you, because my life every day and every night is also only suffering and more suffering. Good luck to you

 

[Britney Spears]

@Alexandra0 Thank you so much, darling, for your words, a big hug

 

[shediedatsea]

I love you Bitney Spears. I hope you can find peace with the decision you make, no matter for what you choose. I wish you well. Hugs and kisses

 

[Aiyuxiao]

We only talked for a short while, but whatever you decide, we are here for you. I'm sorry for the pain you have been going through

 

[FishRain3469]

Thoughts and prayers to you Always, Godspeed ♥

 

[Roadrunner]

Best of luck, you your journey is gentle

 

[Droso]

Even though we haven't interacted much recently, I will miss your presence on SaSu. I hope that when you ctb you will feel at peace. I definitely feel the same sentiments that Bankai and other people shared on this thread.

 

[unluckysadness]

I hope you'll find the peace you deserve. We all deserve peace. Good luck

 

[UaScorpioVetal224]

Голодание в течение 8–12 часов
- 4 часа без питьевой воды
- за 1 час до: 2 грамма парацетамола
- за 45 минут до: 3 х 10 г метотрексата
- за 30 минут до приема: 36 х 10 мг диазепама (356 мг), измельченного в ступке с небольшим количеством 5 мл воды.
- за 15 минут до приема: 30 х 0,5 мг ривотрила (150 мг), измельченного в ступке с небольшим количеством 5 мл воды.
- За 10 минут до еды: приготовьте безалкогольный напиток: 3 стакана по 25 г, 26 г и 27 г безалкогольного напитка, растворенного в 50 мг воды.
- за 0 минут до: 1 стакан 25 г безалкогольного напитка, растворенного в 50 мг воды.
(Без антацидов)

(Максимальное время, которое я смогу провести в одиночестве, — 4 часа. Я постараюсь найти более длительный период, но это будет невозможно.)
Я заказала свой SN в январе. У меня есть тот, что был на оригинальном сайте DMC. Боюсь, он потерял свою чистоту, но не знаю. Я сохранила его, как смогла.
В любом случае, если это продлится дольше, чем в этом году, я добавлю ещё 26 г во вторую чашку и 27 г в третью. Первая чашка будет 25 г.

У меня толерантность к бензодиазепинам, потому что я принимаю их ежедневно. Тогда я принимал диазепам и Ривотрил. Скоро начну их принимать, чтобы они подействовали. Если я приму эти дозы позже, у меня больше шансов вызвать рвоту, пока они не подействуют. Понятно?
У меня много страхов, и я готовилась к этому как могла, анализируя разные протоколы и следуя рекомендациям. Больше всего я боюсь, что истечёт срок действия моей подписки (SN), так как я заказала её в январе, и какие у меня есть сроки, и сработает ли это. Я знаю, что существует множество вещей и противоречивых мнений; из-за болезни я не могу их вспомнить и так далее. Каждый день мне хочется сделать это импульсивно, но я поняла, что благодаря Сасу и всем вам я не буду делать это импульсивно. Скоро я опубликую прощальную тему, описывающую мою ситуацию. Когда придёт время и возможность (не знаю, когда это будет), я это сделаю. Я не смогу обновиться, когда это будет; я просто опубликую прощальное фото. В тот день, когда это будет. Если я не опубликую через три месяца, пожалуйста, удалите мой аккаунт, модераторы.
Если бы я могла больше времени проводить в одиночестве, было бы лучше, но это невозможно из-за моей гиперопеки и суицидальных наклонностей. Родители сняли с меня замки и другие вещи. Моя болезнь и когнитивные нарушения ухудшаются с каждым днём, и я не могу планировать, кроме как терпеть каждую секунду, минуту и час своей болезни. Но я стараюсь планировать всё, что в моих силах. Буду рада любым мнениям и рекомендациям по поводу моего протокола.
Я боюсь, что моя НС будет разрушена, и у меня останется время побыть одной, но у меня не будет другого выбора.
Я всё ещё с вами и останусь здесь. Я не могу понять информацию, удержать её или осмыслить. Я люблю вас. Буду рада любым мнениям о моём протоколе.
Когда-нибудь, когда их не станет, я это сделаю. Когда? Не знаю; может быть, через год или больше, или раньше, кто знает. Они не оставят меня в покое ни на секунду. Но у меня есть план, и я надеюсь, что он сработает через четыре часа. Мой инстинкт самосохранения дал трещину, и я уже писала темы о вскрытиях, каталепсиях и тому подобном, но это меньше всего меня беспокоит, когда я хочу как можно скорее начать жить. Извините за длинный пост. Обнимаю и люблю.
Мой протокол и всё такое. Брит.
Извините за перевод. Я испанец.

Add a stronger painkiller. Morphine, nalbuphine, etc.

Add a stronger painkiller. Morphine, nalbuphine, etc.

Add a stronger painkiller. Morphine, nalbuphine, etc.

 

[TBONTB]

P.S. I'll take the SIM card out of my phone and put it away. I'll plan everything well for when the pro-lifers arrive and save my crime scenes. There will be nothing on my phone, and I'll make a plan to fool them and delay the diagnosis when they find me. I'll label SN's drinks as azide and put crushed pills next to them and a yellow bottle of whiskey to fool them

Why mislabel the drinks? Just curious. It seems like this will be known eventually?

 

[Britney Spears]

Why mislabel the drinks? Just curious. It seems like this will be known eventually?

to buy time, but I don't know if it would work. A hug