Help my plan (so far at least.)

[smirks00ts]

( this is copy pasted from my notes app. I may change things later. dunno. sorry if it sounds stupid, i wrote it while upset. )

kill yourself on August 23 ( or whenever you go to college again. )

Before a week
- pretend youre happy and okay
- prepare shitty letters
- delete accounts slowly if possible.
- make sure you can make hours as long as possible in uni. in schedule.


At uni:
- Go to 4th floor, and then those stairs
- check if there is anyone. if its empty, irs a good start.
- send last letters.
- turn off phone and throw it away, not off the stairs.

on railing
- if cant climb. take off thobe
- close eyes, breathe in, pray ( like thars gonna do shit )
- wrap arms around self
- let yourself fall as much as possible, keep trying all day
- make sure its on the BACK of the skull, other wise its just paralysis and thats just cringe!

if fail state, redo every day until its successful. DO NOT INTERACT WITH ANYONE.


I also plan to use my mom's old meds. half of them.are like vitamins iron and like. diabetes stuff, that or ill steal my dad's gun. however im more confident in the falling off a balcony plan. id appreciate any advice. esp w SI

 

[meowpuppy]

it's only the fourth floor, or are you going to the roof of the building?

 

[smirks00ts]

it's only the fourth floor, or are you going to the roof of the building?

technically the fifth. I cant really go to the roof. but its still high enough.

 

[iwishtodie8]

Damn bro idk what to do anymore as well. I just want to die

 

[Dawns]

i mean i can't stop you but the fourth/fifth floor seems low. i just hope you don't end up disabled

 

[meowpuppy]

i mean i can't stop you but the fourth/fifth floor seems low. i just hope you don't end up disabled

if it's a university building maybe the floors are exceptionally tall? so 5 would be 8 or 9, still not great..

 

[hughmun9]

if fail state, redo every day until its successful. DO NOT INTERACT WITH ANYONE.

this bit sounds unrealistic, if you're trying to hit the back of your skull and you fail to ctb you're likely to incapacitate yourself from trying again. If you pass out people will find you and call an ambulance. and as others mentioned, fifth floor does sound pretty low...

 

[smirks00ts]

Damn bro idk what to do anymore as well. I just want to die

thats fair, I wish you luck.

this bit sounds unrealistic, if you're trying to hit the back of your skull and you fail to ctb you're likely to incapacitate yourself from trying again. If you pass out people will find you and call an ambulance. and as others mentioned, fifth floor does sound pretty low...

if it's a university building maybe the floors are exceptionally tall? so 5 would be 8 or 9, still not great..

i mean i can't stop you but the fourth/fifth floor seems low. i just hope you don't end up disabled

I appreciate your words and i think I see your logic. ill try to think more on it. thank you all.

this bit sounds unrealistic, if you're trying to hit the back of your skull and you fail to ctb you're likely to incapacitate yourself from trying again. If you pass out people will find you and call an ambulance. and as others mentioned, fifth floor does sound pretty low...

probably should've described that dont interact with anyone means online. since thats where I have friends and what not. I dont have many people irl.