Venting My most recent “delusion”.

[snapmyfingers36]

I can't escape these thoughts that other people I know have been calling delusions. It's uncomfortable to hear someone say it's not real when it feels real to me. My most recent delusion was that all the food in my house was contaminated/radioactive. I went without food for a week yet no one I know noticed my drastic weight loss. I do enjoy and entertain the idea still as it motivates me more to starve. I like the thought of killing myself slowly by starving to death or having my organs fail from a lack of eating.

 

[Lulzacruel]

as a schizotypal, i can sort of agree with what you are saying, though i only had a psychotic episode 9 years ago, the rest of my time has been mainly with the social adverseness and the "odd and eccentric behaviour/mannerisms"

FYI, both of what you wanted to use as a CTB method are heavily painful. you sure?

 

[snapmyfingers36]

I'm sure, I would rather go out in a painful way than a peaceful way.