• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

snapmyfingers36

snapmyfingers36

Fag
Jul 12, 2023
3
I can't escape these thoughts that other people I know have been calling delusions. It's uncomfortable to hear someone say it's not real when it feels real to me. My most recent delusion was that all the food in my house was contaminated/radioactive. I went without food for a week yet no one I know noticed my drastic weight loss. I do enjoy and entertain the idea still as it motivates me more to starve. I like the thought of killing myself slowly by starving to death or having my organs fail from a lack of eating.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Forever Sleep
Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

Specialist
Jun 13, 2023
336
as a schizotypal, i can sort of agree with what you are saying, though i only had a psychotic episode 9 years ago, the rest of my time has been mainly with the social adverseness and the "odd and eccentric behaviour/mannerisms"

FYI, both of what you wanted to use as a CTB method are heavily painful. you sure?
 
  • Like
Reactions: snapmyfingers36
snapmyfingers36

snapmyfingers36

Fag
Jul 12, 2023
3
I'm sure, I would rather go out in a painful way than a peaceful way.
 

Similar threads

Darkover
Replies
3
Views
261
Offtopic
not-2-b-the-answer
not-2-b-the-answer
SomewhatLoved
Replies
2
Views
263
Suicide Discussion
Pluto
Pluto
michii
Replies
7
Views
385
Suicide Discussion
AuraByte
AuraByte
Droso
Replies
6
Views
446
Suicide Discussion
cemeteryismyhome
cemeteryismyhome
usernamesarehard
Replies
20
Views
927
Suicide Discussion
usernamesarehard
usernamesarehard