Venting My life is so dull it’s actually insane

[lastappleonearth]

I stand up, I do my obligatory chores, which I dread doing, but do anyways, then I work out, then I eat sth, then I go to sleep and that's basically it. Tho most of the time I sit in a dark room and watch shows, it gives me comfort I guess. But yeah, I barely interact with anyone, I have one friend, who doesn't live near me, I've lost everyone else for a variety of reasons. You know, if I would really someday do something to myself, I would write in my note that no one needs to be overly sad about it being over, because I didn't really have a life anyway. I know it's dumb and I know they would still be sad obviously, but it's true, I don't have a life. I merely just exist and I don't get the point. I'd love to do stuff with someone, but I don't rlly have anyone. I mean, I'm forcing myself to visit my friend in his country tomorrow, but I'm also kind of dreading it. I honestly don't know how long I can continue to deal with this loneliness and emptiness. Humans are not supposed to live like this. I don't remember the last time I was hugged

 

[lonely_potato]

Being alone is really hard. My days are very similar, I only have one friend who I keep in touch with via text, and other than that I don't see anyone most days. It feels like groundhog's day, again, and again. I hope your visit with your friend goes well.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Being alone is really hard. My days are very similar, I only have one friend who I keep in touch with via text, and other than that I don't see anyone most days. It feels like groundhog's day, again, and again. I hope your visit with your friend goes well.

Thank you. Yeah it does really feel like that, just makes me wonder, how long I'll be able to do this. Idk, I can only distract myself so much, but it's hard not to notice how alone I am. Wish you the best, I hope it gets better for you

 

[kirillbledny]

I relate so much. Idek if I can actually call this living, sometimes I feel like my room is my coffin, like I've already been buried alive or something. I'm so over everything. I also have one friend who lives in a different country. He's flying out to visit me in 2 weeks, idk how or if I'll have the energy to even do stuff every day and go out, but hopefully him being around will motivate me.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I relate so much. Idek if I can actually call this living, sometimes I feel like my room is my coffin, like I've already been buried alive or something. I'm so over everything. I also have one friend who lives in a different country. He's flying out to visit me in 2 weeks, idk how or if I'll have the energy to even do stuff every day and go out, but hopefully him being around will motivate me.

That's actually a pretty good way to describe it, it doesn't really feel like living tbh. It's great that your friend is flying to you. My friend visited me last year in summer, so I'm doing it this year

 

[coralreefer]

I understand, sometimes I just lay in bed and start crying because of how lonely I feel, but imo being alone has always served me better than being with people. When I remember being repeatedly hurt and having people leave me makes the loneliness feel a little less suffocating, since I know it could be worse. Doesn't make me want to have more friends any less though.
I just want to exit from all the pain and sadness this world brings, but alas, it's not my time yet. Hope that you can find your respite on this planet soon, regardless of which shape it takes on

 

[lastappleonearth]

I understand, sometimes I just lay in bed and start crying because of how lonely I feel, but imo being alone has always served me better than being with people. When I remember being repeatedly hurt and having people leave me makes the loneliness feel a little less suffocating, since I know it could be worse. Doesn't make me want to have more friends any less though.
I just want to exit from all the pain and sadness this world brings, but alas, it's not my time yet. Hope that you can find your respite on this planet soon, regardless of which shape it takes on

Loneliness is just exhausting and draining. Sure there have been plenty of people, who hurt me or left me for various reasons, but I also made my fair share of mistakes, which I now terribly regret. Sometimes the loneliness can even be comforting, I agree, but overall I still long for connection.
I hope things get better for you as well

 

[coralreefer]

Loneliness is just exhausting and draining. Sure there have been plenty of people, who hurt me or left me for various reasons, but I also made my fair share of mistakes, which I now terribly regret. Sometimes the loneliness can even be comforting, I agree, but overall I still long for connection.
I hope things get better for you as well

I think what I want most in this world is to be loved and to love someone, however I doubt that I'm well enough mentally to properly love anyone the way they deserve. I still have time until I must leave so I will try, but I doubt that it will happen in this lifetime.
I hope you find meaningful connection soon in unexpected ways

 

[lastappleonearth]

I think what I want most in this world is to be loved and to love someone, however I doubt that I'm well enough mentally to properly love anyone the way they deserve. I still have time until I must leave so I will try, but I doubt that it will happen in this lifetime.
I hope you find meaningful connection soon in unexpected ways

Same, I think that's also what I want most, but it seems so far away, almost impossible. Though maybe we'll be lucky and we'll somehow find it or even better, it finds us, who knows

 

[coralreefer]

Same, I think that's also what I want most, but it seems so far away, almost impossible. Though maybe we'll be lucky and we'll somehow find it or even better, it finds us, who knows

Haha yeah maybe, it would be a goddamn miracle in my case though. It feels like an exclusive product only sold to certain people, the way it has avoided falling into my hands is almost comical.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Haha yeah maybe, it would be a goddamn miracle in my case though. It feels like an exclusive product only sold to certain people, the way it has avoided falling into my hands is almost comical.

Yeah, it sometimes sure feels like sth unattainable in a way. I also never experienced "teenage love" or anything like that. Idk, I once had the chance to be with sb, but I fucked that up unfortunately

 

[coralreefer]

Yeah, it sometimes sure feels like sth unattainable in a way. I also never experienced "teenage love" or anything like that. Idk, I once had the chance to be with sb, but I fucked that up unfortunately

We all make mistakes, don't beat yourself up over it dawg
I've never even been in a relationship. Like ever. I don't think I'm unattractive, I'm just kinda unlovable I guess, it's terrible to say but simply the truth. I lead the life of a monk in that manner.

 

[lastappleonearth]

We all make mistakes, don't beat yourself up over it dawg
I've never even been in a relationship. Like ever. I don't think I'm unattractive, I'm just kinda unlovable I guess, it's terrible to say but simply the truth. I lead the life of a monk in that manner.

Yeah I know, to a point mistakes are only human, I just seem to make a lot of them. I mean, sb rlly tried to love me once, but I guess I couldn't accept anything good happening to me. I don't think you're unlovable, but finding love or rather love happening to you I guess is rare and difficult