No matter what I do for my skin nothing gets better. Did nothing to it. It continues to get worse. Put creams on it. It continues to deteriorate. It's deteriorating everyday and I'm slowly looking like a skeleton with holes in my face. I have no more fat in my cheeks. My face is gone and likely gone forever.
I'm supposed to go to school in 2 weeks. I don't think I can go outside looking like this. I'm going to jump onto the subway and kill myself or drop myself from a high spot in public. I'm going to kill myself because no one thinks I will. They all think I'm overreacting. They don't know what I see everyday. They think that magical surgeries are going to just bring everything back to normal. I'm absolutely fucked and I know it.
My parents brought me into this world for no fucking reason. I've suffered for so long but now I can't take it anymore. It doesn't matter if my parents work hard everyday and if they made sacrifices for me. What was the point in giving birth to me? My limbs feel like they're going to explode. Everyday is a nightmare and every dream is one too.
I'm supposed to go to school in 2 weeks. I don't think I can go outside looking like this. I'm going to jump onto the subway and kill myself or drop myself from a high spot in public. I'm going to kill myself because no one thinks I will. They all think I'm overreacting. They don't know what I see everyday. They think that magical surgeries are going to just bring everything back to normal. I'm absolutely fucked and I know it.
My parents brought me into this world for no fucking reason. I've suffered for so long but now I can't take it anymore. It doesn't matter if my parents work hard everyday and if they made sacrifices for me. What was the point in giving birth to me? My limbs feel like they're going to explode. Everyday is a nightmare and every dream is one too.
