i don't know what to do. i hope i won't be too scared while i do it.
i honestly don't know what to do in terms of method. i can't source anything like SN. so, i guess i've settled on jumping off a bridge.
i'm worried i'll hurt my girlfriend. she won't have anyone when i'm gone. but everyday in my life is suffering and i'm just not strong enough to tolerate the bullshit anymore.
August 28-29 is the date. i suppose this is my last month to live. kinda dark to think about. especially how i'll likely die scared and in pain. she has been adamant on not helping me because she wants me to live, which is understandable. i haven't told my friends, mainly cause it isn't their business, and i dont want them to know even if they might find out eventually. but that might not happen.
that's it. i don't know what to write anymore. i'm scared of dying, still.
i'm dying alone.
i honestly don't know what to do in terms of method. i can't source anything like SN. so, i guess i've settled on jumping off a bridge.
i'm worried i'll hurt my girlfriend. she won't have anyone when i'm gone. but everyday in my life is suffering and i'm just not strong enough to tolerate the bullshit anymore.
August 28-29 is the date. i suppose this is my last month to live. kinda dark to think about. especially how i'll likely die scared and in pain. she has been adamant on not helping me because she wants me to live, which is understandable. i haven't told my friends, mainly cause it isn't their business, and i dont want them to know even if they might find out eventually. but that might not happen.
that's it. i don't know what to write anymore. i'm scared of dying, still.
i'm dying alone.
