myriapoda
happy birthday!
- Jun 24, 2025
- 13
today are exams and i genuinely can't see myself passing any of my classes to maintain my GPA. i don't know what's wrong with me, when i study hard and consistently something seems to fall out of me and makes me stupid. when i don't study, i don't feel any better either. it doesn't help when i do talk to my professors about it like reasons why: work, taking care if expenses for both me and my mother, financial stress, etc that they *are* understanding and give me second chances. but i can't seem to move myself forward.
i sometimes wonder what's the point of living this long and spending so much time in school when i cant see myself living. there's so many things i want to do, but why can't i push myself? SI has been plaguing me, and it doesn't help that it's been getter worse with winter coming. it's like being reduced to some kind of weak machine who can't even pick up a book and recite plain words
i stick out like a sore thumb too. i kinda wish the school was bigger so that there was less chances of a professor remembering me by name and face.
update: i've decided not to come in for my chem finals, i left the bathroom and saw my professor. i think i'll actually vomit if i walk into that class
i sometimes wonder what's the point of living this long and spending so much time in school when i cant see myself living. there's so many things i want to do, but why can't i push myself? SI has been plaguing me, and it doesn't help that it's been getter worse with winter coming. it's like being reduced to some kind of weak machine who can't even pick up a book and recite plain words
i stick out like a sore thumb too. i kinda wish the school was bigger so that there was less chances of a professor remembering me by name and face.
update: i've decided not to come in for my chem finals, i left the bathroom and saw my professor. i think i'll actually vomit if i walk into that class
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