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jeevasO-o

jeevasO-o

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Please my day was already going so horrible. Why do I need to find out now that she's lying to me??
She just told me she lied about her age. It's not a big deal at all, I know. It's just a small difference. I thought she was 21, because that's what she told me, but she's actually 19.

Why do I feel so horrible right now? I wanna cry. It's like she lied to me my whole life.. it's not even a big deal. I'm 20. It's not a big difference at all but it feels so horrible. I don't know why. I trusted her with everything and I still do I think. It's like just weird.

Can anyone explain it?? I'm so confused why am I so hurt

[2]: and she told me she tried to CTB.. also like she's genuinely the ONLY reason I don't kill myself yet. I won't kill myself if she doesn't leaves me before or dies or something.
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tonicer

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Can anyone explain it?? I'm so confused why am I so hurt
Someone who lies about small things sometimes also lies about bigger things. That might be the reason.

Trust is hard to get but very easy to loose. I recommend talking with her about how you feel maybe she understands that your trust in her is lowered or damaged and tries to rebuild it.

Good luck. :)
 
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well i would be upset too because its already risky to trust people online. when u found out that person online lied u see why. are they telling u their actual age now or is this another lie? it leaves u questioning everything else too.
 
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Please my day was already going so horrible. Why do I need to find out now that she's lying to me??
She just told me she lied about her age. It's not a big deal at all, I know. It's just a small difference. I thought she was 21, because that's what she told me, but she's actually 19.

Why do I feel so horrible right now? I wanna cry. It's like she lied to me my whole life.. it's not even a big deal. I'm 20. It's not a big difference at all but it feels so horrible. I don't know why. I trusted her with everything and I still do I think. It's like just weird.

Can anyone explain it?? I'm so confused why am I so hurt

[2]: and she told me she tried to CTB.. also like she's genuinely the ONLY reason I don't kill myself yet. I won't kill myself if she doesn't leaves me before or dies or something.
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Trust takes a lot (or very little) depending on the person, if its the former for you it's wasted and broken effort which is why it could feel so bad. But another question, how close are you to them anyways?
 
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Please my day was already going so horrible. Why do I need to find out now that she's lying to me??
She just told me she lied about her age. It's not a big deal at all, I know. It's just a small difference. I thought she was 21, because that's what she told me, but she's actually 19.

Why do I feel so horrible right now? I wanna cry. It's like she lied to me my whole life.. it's not even a big deal. I'm 20. It's not a big difference at all but it feels so horrible. I don't know why. I trusted her with everything and I still do I think. It's like just weird.

Can anyone explain it?? I'm so confused why am I so hurt

[2]: and she told me she tried to CTB.. also like she's genuinely the ONLY reason I don't kill myself yet. I won't kill myself if she doesn't leaves me before or dies or something.
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You're hurt because you trusted her, even if its a small thing. Im going through the same thing so I know how it is
 
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Someone who lies about small things sometimes also lies about bigger things. That might be the reason.

Trust is hard to get but very easy to loose. I recommend talking with her about how you feel maybe she understands that your trust in her is lowered or damaged and tries to rebuild it.

Good luck. :)
Thank you!<3
Trust takes a lot (or very little) depending on the person, if its the former for you it's wasted and broken effort which is why it could feel so bad. But another question, how close are you to them anyways?
Pretty close. She's the only reason I'm not killing myself. Sometimes I'm not even sure if we're more than friends.. but I did confess my love to her and did tell her like "what now?" And I tried to make it clear, in the end I genuinely don't care if we're dating or best friend, it doesn't makes much difference to me, I just wanted to tell her. She didn't reject nor accept it. She was very happy though.
When I tried asking her about it she always dodges it for some reason, I took it as she's too scared to reject me. Still after that we remained just fine and the same. I also wasn't sure if she still was dating someone or not since it was so weird complicated, because her I think ex was cheating or something or toxic generally.
You're hurt because you trusted her, even if its a small thing. Im going through the same thing so I know how it is
I guess it makes sense. Hope you are okay tho
 
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Trueno

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Nov 3, 2024
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Thank you!<3

Pretty close. She's the only reason I'm not killing myself. Sometimes I'm not even sure if we're more than friends.. but I did confess my love to her and did tell her like "what now?" And I tried to make it clear, in the end I genuinely don't care if we're dating or best friend, it doesn't makes much difference to me, I just wanted to tell her. She didn't reject nor accept it. She was very happy though.
When I tried asking her about it she always dodges it for some reason, I took it as she's too scared to reject me. Still after that we remained just fine and the same. I also wasn't sure if she still was dating someone or not since it was so weird complicated, because her I think ex was cheating or something or toxic generally.

I guess it makes sense. Hope you are okay tho
Well, I guess being that close and putting so much weight on them was probably why any lie would've hurt no matter what it was unfortunately. Although, it's nice that you were able to be happy with them romantically or otherwise —usually things end there as far as I know. I hope you can get to work this out though, good luck.
 
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Well, I guess being that close and putting so much weight on them was probably why any lie would've hurt no matter what it was unfortunately. Although, it's nice that you were able to be happy with them romantically or otherwise —usually things end there as far as I know. I hope you can get to work this out though, good luck.
Thank you!!
 
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