Venting My father’s recent death is painful, but I still miss my boyfriend more than anything.

[BlueButterfly111]

Just venting here, no particular reason for this post, feel free to skip. As the title says, my dad's recent passing is painful and numbing, but I still miss my boyfriend more than anything. I still get confused when people make it seem like my boyfriend's death is no big deal compared to a family members death. When my boyfriend passed away, it was literally crickets for me, I had to survive all of that alone with no support. Now all of a sudden since my father passed away, there's all these people reaching out to me and wanting to support me.

Truthfully it's very offensive and makes me hate people more than I already did. When my boyfriend passed away, it felt like the world was ending and my heart was literally breaking from the inside. He was my soulmate, he made life worth living, and since he's been gone life has been pointless, he added the meaning to my life. My boyfriend showed me so much love, and he said that he wanted to have me as his girlfriend forever. Don't get me wrong, I loved my dad so much, and I'm not looking forward to going to his funeral because that will be very painful.

This has more to do with other people. Idk, I guess I just think differently than most people about things. Before I met my boyfriend Henry I never connected with anyone else as much as him, and haven't since he passed besides my recent reconnection with my dad, but it didn't last long. I am feeling sad about both my boyfriend and father being gone, but just wanted to vent about this. I feel like my boyfriend and father were a lot alike, they may not have been perfect, but they both had a good heart and loved deeply. I don't know what I'm supposed to do now without both of them, but I will keep on living for now.

 

[whywere]

Back in March 1982 my best friend EVER, died right in front of me in an accident and it was HELL for me. It takes a lot of time to heal and move forward, BUT try and remember this, like my great friend who now is in heaven, your father and boyfriend would want you to have a wonderful life filled with love, smiles and great friends, like me!

Yep, it takes a lot of time, effort and a few steps backwards till one gets the most profound memoires of those that one loved and have passed to stay with a person for a lifetime and even more.

You are a kind and ever so caring person, your posts scream that so loud and clear and I and other are giving you strength, hope and the hugs to grief, heal and have lasting wonderful memories and live a life that your father and boyfriend would want you to have.

Hugs, love and I always have you in my heart, soul and mind, as a good friend and family member on here.

Walter

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Back in March 1982 my best friend EVER, died right in front of me in an accident and it was HELL for me. It takes a lot of time to heal and move forward, BUT try and remember this, like my great friend who now is in heaven, your father and boyfriend would want you to have a wonderful life filled with love, smiles and great friends, like me!

Yep, it takes a lot of time, effort and a few steps backwards till one gets the most profound memoires of those that one loved and have passed to stay with a person for a lifetime and even more.

You are a kind and ever so caring person, your posts scream that so loud and clear and I and other are giving you strength, hope and the hugs to grief, heal and have lasting wonderful memories and live a life that your father and boyfriend would want you to have.

Hugs, love and I always have you in my heart, soul and mind, as a good friend and family member on here.

Walter

Thank you so much Walter! This world is so cruel, but I'm glad I have this website, I've met so many kind and caring people here, like you! It makes me sad that so may kind people end up on this website, just like people with the most beautiful heart and souls suffer and die, like my dad and boyfriend. But at least they are at peace now, and as for this rest of us, I hope we can find peace and happiness while living. If you ever need to talk I'm here, thanks again for being so kind, my friend!