My ctb: 13 june by jumping

[Defenestration]

Bona mors !

Merci

Je dois éviter tout ce qui est entouré de rouge... donc je dois d'abord baisser les yeux pour me positionner

Je dois éviter tout ce qui est entouré de rouge... donc je dois d'abord baisser les yeux pour me positionner
@noir et blanc

 

[Defenestration]

Picture of 19 april

 

[Defenestration]

Go bedroom

 

[Unknown21]

Go bedroom

Goodnight.

 

[Seeking Aether]

All the best

 

[Defenestration]

I dont know if i delete or no for thursday...

 

[why_why_why]

because it is the most lethal method jumping from 60 m high even if landing on a part where there is a little grass... but my fall must not be slowed down in the air and not jump with my feet in front

Thanks i dont want to die but stop big anxiety/depression

i notice you keep saying you dont want to die... im not trying to interject dont get me wrong but have you considered other options? if your feelings keep changing please see if there are any other options for you. i hope you find peace friend

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

I dont know if i delete or no for thursday...

I wish the best for you I wish it could all be better in the world but it will never be that way.

I dont know if i delete or no for thursday...

That's it, I sent a message to the guard that I could come on Thursday between 8 a.m. and 10 a.m. (on the terrace of a 20-story, 60-meter tower)... like last April when I failed. He was the one who proposed to me on Thursday.
my heart is racing.


Je ne suis pas un gars impulsif ...
I think...



@vak

I'm sorry , I wasn't trying to assume I was replying to a quote I saw. Hope you aren't upset with me. wish the best for you.

That's it, I sent a message to the guard that I could come on Thursday between 8 a.m. and 10 a.m. (on the terrace of a 20-story, 60-meter tower)... like last April when I failed. He was the one who proposed to me on Thursday.
my heart is racing.


Je ne suis pas un gars impulsif ...
I think...



@vak

They are planned but also impulsive. I don't know how to exsplain.

 

[Defenestration]

I wish the best for you I wish it could all be better in the world but it will never be that way.



I'm sorry , I wasn't trying to assume I was replying to a quote I saw. Hope you aren't upset with me. wish the best for you.

They are planned but also impulsive. I don't know how to exsplain.

Hello dont worry i have no anger against you,you didnt do anything wrong

 

[Defenestration]

I canceled my visit to the terrace tomorrow and therefore postponed my CTB.

I really want to be dead but not ready to die. I'm so exhausted that I don't have the strength to mentally fix it and go.

I preferred to move back so as not to go up for nothing and to give myself one last chance for the guard to open the door again. barely canceled I already regret it.

I don't hate life itself, I hate my psychological illnesses (bipolar, borderline, social phobia, generalized anxiety) which are a big handicap for my daily life... I just went shopping, just food shopping, I'm already psychologically rinsed.

 

[Defenestration]

I'm tired of living physically and mentally... it's not because CTB is pushed back that I'm better, it's still that fucking SI. There are so many people who die in wars, accidents, lack of food, cancers and who would like to live and others who would like to die and who cannot do so because of SI.

 

[Defenestration]

No comment?

 

[Ambivalent1]

Have you seen the French animated film The Suicide Shop?

 

[Defenestration]

No....

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

No comment?

How is today 4 u?
(I'm online a lot so if you need someone to talk to you can talk to me)

Have you seen the French animated film The Suicide Shop?

what is that

 

[Defenestration]

My ctb has del

Comment ça va aujourd'hui à 4 heures ?
(Je suis beaucoup en ligne donc si vous avez besoin de parler à quelqu'un, vous pouvez me parler)

qu'est-ce que c'est

My CTB has deleted.not now.
Thanks. Im exhausted

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

No....

I heard

My ctb has del

My CTB has deleted.not now.
Thanks. Im exhausted

same, hope your day gets better

 

[Defenestration]

I heard

same, hope your day gets better

I am okfine

 

[_Gollum_]

Don't hesitate to take more rest over the coming days and weeks; even aborted attempts can really take a lot of you psychologically and physically.

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

Don't hesitate to take more rest over the coming days and weeks; even aborted attempts can really take a lot of you psychologically and physically.

Agree

 

[Nothing87]

Glad you're doing okay and I agree, dealing with mental and psychological illnesses is exhausting. You should take some rest and relax

 

[Defenestration]

Thanks

 

[Defenestration]

I try again ...i dont know when i could

 

[KillingPain267]

I don't hate life itself, I hate my psychological illnesses (bipolar, borderline, social phobia, generalized anxiety) which are a big handicap for my daily life... I just went shopping, just food shopping, I'm already psychologically rinsed.

I can totally relate to this! It's not life itself, it's just the suffering that makes people like us want to end life (since life in this universe is cursed with suffering more or less). This is why some use drugs or try to sleep more (to escape the feeling of suffering), but eventually those things have consequences so the ultimate solution at the end is to end life to end suffering... and then SI kicks in on autopilot, lol.

I try again ...i dont know when i could

I hope you have tried so seek mental health treatment first (me, I'm giving it a chance first for a while).

 

[ratvroomvrooms]

I'm sorry for the suffering you had to go through. I wish you luck on your journey. <3

 

[Defenestration]

no treatment has worked... I love the Tour de France and the Olympic Games (athletics) so I can last another 2 months... but by mid-August I must be dead. I don't want to try to heal anymore, it took too much energy, I just want to die.... I will eventually get there, the determination, the will will end up paying off...I have never been so ready...I can get there...

 

[jarik]

I wish you the best

 

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[Ash]

no treatment has worked... I love the Tour de France and the Olympic Games (athletics) so I can last another 2 months... but by mid-August I must be dead. I don't want to try to heal anymore, it took too much energy, I just want to die.... I will eventually get there, the determination, the will will end up paying off...I have never been so ready...I can get there...

Don't forget the Tour de France Femmes!

 

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N'oubliez pas le Tour de France Femmes !

Not intérested sorry