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MongolianCarlsJr

MongolianCarlsJr

Glory to the Hydro Archon
May 22, 2025
27
It's finally time for me... Now I'm taking several trains to get to my hotel, it's a 2 hour ride in total. (It's 1pm right now)

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Anyway here's my plan again:

- 22.00 final temporary sleep until 06.00 the next day (i think it counts as fasting for 8 hours)
- 06.00 take a piss & shit, then take 600mg paracetamol (with a small sip of water)
- 06.20 take 3x10mg of domperidone (with small sips of water again)
- 06.21 make 3 servings of SN drink (25g in 50ml of water, I weigh around 87kg), then crush my lorazepam pills and mix with water (tbh idk how much pills I need to crush, i think 4 or 5 is enough?)
- 06.50 drink the crushed lorazepam
- 07.00 drink SN and lay in my bed

(If you all have suggestions for my plan please let me know, I really appreciate it)

Despite all the bad things I have experienced in my life, I feel grateful to have traveled around my country and to neighboring countries by myself... I better give all my remaining money to my little sister.

It's time for me to travel somewhere far away and have peace forever.

Thank you all for everything, it really matters to me. I'll upload some pics also in this thread later.

Goodbye world 👋
 
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booplesnoot34

booplesnoot34

I’ll miss the winter, a world of fragile things
Feb 8, 2023
164
Good luck! Remember it's never too late to turn back if you change your mind, even during the process.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,629
I hope you find peace. Good luck! :heart:
 
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darksouls

Angelic
May 10, 2025
4,324
good luck, I hope you find the peace you desire ❤️‍🩹
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,752
I hope you find peace.
 
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MongolianCarlsJr

MongolianCarlsJr

Glory to the Hydro Archon
May 22, 2025
27
Just arrived at my hotel... gonna unpack my stuff and chill for a while.
 

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hevnsfall

hevnsfall

Cat mom
Jul 18, 2026
106
Wishing you the best of luck 🤞 🤞 🤞

Are you comfy ?

This is also my plan
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,422
How are you doing? Wishing you luck & peace 🕊️.
 
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hevnsfall

Cat mom
Jul 18, 2026
106
I just clicked on the picture. Lorazepam 0.5mg is a pretty low dosage. I have a prescription for 1mg pill 3 times a day for my anxiety attacks so i think you should take more than 4 or 5.
 
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literallynoone

literallynoone

despite everything, i'm still here
Jul 21, 2026
43
Not judging you, just remember you can always turn back. I hope you find what you seek.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,255
It's finally time for me... Now I'm taking several trains to get to my hotel, it's a 2 hour ride in total. (It's 1pm right now)

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Anyway here's my plan again:

- 22.00 final temporary sleep until 06.00 the next day (i think it counts as fasting for 8 hours)
- 06.00 take a piss & shit, then take 600mg paracetamol (with a small sip of water)
- 06.20 take 3x10mg of domperidone (with small sips of water again)
- 06.21 make 3 servings of SN drink (25g in 50ml of water, I weigh around 87kg), then crush my lorazepam pills and mix with water (tbh idk how much pills I need to crush, i think 4 or 5 is enough?)
- 06.50 drink the crushed lorazepam
- 07.00 drink SN and lay in my bed

(If you all have suggestions for my plan please let me know, I really appreciate it)

Despite all the bad things I have experienced in my life, I feel grateful to have traveled around my country and to neighboring countries by myself... I better give all my remaining money to my little sister.

It's time for me to travel somewhere far away and have peace forever.

Thank you all for everything, it really matters to me. I'll upload some pics also in this thread later.

Goodbye world 👋
Good luck my friend . Wish you love and success in whatever you choose✨❤️🫂
 
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MongolianCarlsJr

MongolianCarlsJr

Glory to the Hydro Archon
May 22, 2025
27
I just clicked on the picture. Lorazepam 0.5mg is a pretty low dosage. I have a prescription for 1mg pill 3 times a day for my anxiety attacks so i think you should take more than 4 or 5.
Yeah that's what I thought... I once tried to take 1 lorazepam pill at night and it didn't make me sleepy.

Several years ago I have another benzo (alprazolam), forgot how much mg of it, but stupidly I took one at work and I yawned a lot at work in a matter of minutes... My psychiatrist back then even advised me to cut the pill in half after my 2nd visit.
 
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hevnsfall

hevnsfall

Cat mom
Jul 18, 2026
106
Yeah that's what I thought... I once tried to take 1 lorazepam pill at night and it didn't make me sleepy.

Several years ago I have another benzo (alprazolam), forgot how much mg of it, but stupidly I took one at work and I yawned a lot at work in a matter of minutes... My psychiatrist back then even advised me to cut the pill in half after my 2nd visit.
Alprazolam (xanax) makes you sleepy af. Lorazepam takes the edge off. I see you have 7mg there in the picture. You should take more (if not all) 20-25 mins before ingesting the sn so to be sure it gets absorbed and not to throw it up. I never take my benzos with water or swallow them. I keep them under my tongue to dissolve for extra fast absorption and effectiveness. That is a trick my shrink taught me. They really don't taste that nasty.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,402
Yeah that's what I thought... I once tried to take 1 lorazepam pill at night and it didn't make me sleepy.

Several years ago I have another benzo (alprazolam), forgot how much mg of it, but stupidly I took one at work and I yawned a lot at work in a matter of minutes... My psychiatrist back then even advised me to cut the pill in half after my 2nd visit.
Alprazolam will be my benzo of choice before I ingest my SN. It's strong and very fast acting.
Good luck and may you find your peace and be free from any kind of suffering.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
900
Good luck, friend; I hope you can find peace🫂
 
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MongolianCarlsJr

MongolianCarlsJr

Glory to the Hydro Archon
May 22, 2025
27
Now I gotta prepare for my temporary sleep.. then I'll wake up tomorrow and do the thing.
 
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