My bus is coming (SN)

[Mafe]

Sea la decisión que tomes, lo acompañó. Buen viaje

 

[mellow]

So the plans are the same as yesterday. However, I will write about my experiences in the chat. Please someone copying my messages from chat to this thread.
As for the account, I am asking the administration to delete it if I do not contact you within a month.

Times are in PST. Hope I didn't miss any.

• CoffinDance: Okay, 30 min to painkillers. :D
  Today at 4:32 PM
• CoffinDance: Okay, I took painkillers. After 30 min I will take antacid.
  Today at 5:02 PM
• CoffinDance: Im a little nervous right now
  Today at 5:13 PM
• CoffinDance: Ok, I'm in my spot
  Today at 5:47 PM
• CoffinDance: The grass is so wet
  Today at 5:47 PM
• CoffinDance: Bit the moon shines, so I feel safe
  Today at 5:48 PM
• CoffinDance: I'm taking SN at 3:00 am
  Today at 5:48 PM
• builtwrong: @CoffinDance what time is it for you now?
  Today at 5:50 PM
• CoffinDance: 2:50 am
  Today at 5:50 PM
• CoffinDance: I took painkillers and antacid
  Today at 5:51 PM
• CoffinDance: Ugh my shoes and socks are wet. Kinda cold
  Today at 5:57 PM
• CoffinDance: Okay, it is time for SN
  Today at 5:59 PM
• CoffinDance: Mouthwash first
  Today at 6:00 PM
• braketimez: @CoffinDance will you be here when you take it?
  Today at 6:01 PM
• CoffinDance: Yes, I wil describe feelings
  Today at 6:01 PM
• CoffinDance: nunumb
  Today at 6:01 PM
• CoffinDance: Tongue is numb, so it time to drink
  Today at 6:01 PM
• CoffinDance: ddrink it
  Today at 6:02 PM
• CoffinDance: I did it
  Today at 6:02 PM
• CoffinDance: Uh, it is disgusting
  Today at 6:04 PM
• CoffinDance: I don't wanna vomit, so it is ok
  Today at 6:04 PM
• CoffinDance: Heart beating faster
  Today at 6:04 PM
• Silver: Did you take anti emetics @CoffinDance ?
  Today at 6:05 PM
• CoffinDance: No
  Today at 6:05 PM
• CoffinDance: Nothing painful
  Today at 6:06 PM
• CoffinDance: I try to keep it in my tummy as long as I can
  Today at 6:07 PM
• CoffinDance: wawanna vomit
  Today at 6:07 PM
• CoffinDance: vomited a bit
  Today at 6:07 PM
• CoffinDance: Have gags
  Today at 6:07 PM
• CoffinDance: But I keep it
  Today at 6:08 PM
• CoffinDance: ii don't have Gags anymore
  Today at 6:08 PM
• CoffinDance: Maybe I vomited a more than a bit
  Today at 6:09 PM
• braketimez: @CoffinDance do you have another glass prepared or no?
  Today at 6:09 PM
• CoffinDance: Heart Bering faster, buy there is no other symptomhs
  Today at 6:09 PM
• CoffinDance: Yes I have second glass
  Today at 6:10 PM
• CoffinDance: Heart beat faster but I'm not scared
  Today at 6:10 PM
• CoffinDance: Okayz lay down
  Today at 6:12 PM

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

After all this time, it's still difficult for me to balance my feelings of sadness for the loss of such kind souls from the world with happiness for them that they found peace. I'm always sad. I always mourn.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

After all this time, it's still difficult for me to balance my feelings of sadness for the loss of such kind souls from the world with happiness for them that they found peace. I'm always sad. I always mourn.

I agree with your words, they fit perfectly, thank you.

I am glad that soon I will no longer have to look at the bus when such lovable souls leave. I can receive them at their destination and take them in my arms as they deserve

Goodbye my friend

 

[Meditation guide]

• @CoffinDance: Heart beat faster but I'm not scared
  Today at 6:10 PM
• @CoffinDance: Okayz lay down
  Today at 6:12 PM

Does anyone else feel this so much as I do, this indescribable sadness over this loss of a precious life?
I can't help feeling emotional reading this and other posts like it. At the same time, I understand and accept that it was his decision and no one else's. It's gut wrenching for me though to read of this and get a feeling for this unique lovely person.

 

[Smudgedlines]

I am so hoping they were saved. Can't help it

 

[TheQ22]

Does anyone else feel this so much as I do, this indescribable sadness over this loss of a precious life?
I can't help feeling emotional reading this and other posts like it. At the same time, I understand and accept that it was his decision and no one else's. It's gut wrenching for me though to read of this and get a feeling for this unique lovely person.

I find it tears me in 2 different directions. On the one hand I respect their decision and right to choose, and if they were in unbearable pain I am kind of pleased they aren't suffering any more.

On the other hand, I find it surreal, upsetting, and feel very odd about kind of seeing someone as they take their last breaths.

It's uncomfortable.

 

[Meditation guide]

It's uncomfortable.

Try being unusually empathic like I am and it's downright painful in every way.

 

[Smudgedlines]

I find it tears me in 2 different directions. On the one hand I respect their decision and right to choose, and if they were in unbearable pain I am kind of pleased they aren't suffering any more.

On the other hand, I find it surreal, upsetting, and feel very odd about kind of seeing someone as they take their last breaths.

It's uncomfortable.

There's also the benefit of age... that you know things can change so swiftly and so fast ... for better and for worst.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Does anyone else feel this so much as I do, this indescribable sadness over this loss of a precious life?
I can't help feeling emotional reading this and other posts like it. At the same time, I understand and accept that it was his decision and no one else's. It's gut wrenching for me though to read of this and get a feeling for this unique lovely person.

It hurts me incredibly every time. I have tears in my eyes, even though I did not know this lovable soul.

As difficult as it is for me to "be there" when she takes her last breath, it makes me happy.

Because then I know that this soul knows that it doesn't have to die alone. Because she knows that she is among friends and that we are all with her. Because it gives her peace of mind and we can take her fear away

 

[Meditation guide]

it gives her peace of mind and we can take her fear away

This is such a valuable forum, so people who are doing this, their last act on earth, can at least send messages to people who accept and understand them. It's such a lonely act. And it has to be hidden, which is just horrible. So much better if we could be lovingly gathered around them.

 

[illbehave]

I'm taking SN in 5 min. I will describe my feelings on chat.
SN completely dissolved, the water is crystal and have yellowish color.

Saying a little prayer for your heart and soul, as is my custom. Wishing you beautifulness and release from pain and now you are an angel. Bless You.

It hurts me incredibly every time. I have tears in my eyes, even though I did not know this lovable soul.

As difficult as it is for me to "be there" when she takes her last breath, it makes me happy.

Because then I know that this soul knows that it doesn't have to die alone. Because she knows that she is among friends and that we are all with her. Because it gives her peace of mind and we can take her fear away

How Beautiful to put the words... Nobody wants to die alone. I have tears in my eyes now. It is true. I have witnessed it first hand. So Many Times.

 

[rt1989526]

I am so hoping they were saved. Can't help it

You're hoping they failed??

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

You're hoping they failed??

I haven't read all of his posts, but some are a bit suspicious

 

[MeriDeath]

Is he/she still with us or passed away? This is really sad, I wish him good wherever his soul is now.