necrotix
cutter ā attempts : 2
- Jan 17, 2026
- 3
preface: sorry if this barwly makes sense, i am drunk off my ass, nearly unconscious, and spiraling
he is almost 21. i am almost 19
we have a very small age gap of only 2 years but he acts like he is my parent, and he always has even if he has never had the pressure to. he wants to pretend like he was forced to parent me even though number 1; he isn't even the oldest [he is the second youngest of the four of us siblings], and number 2; i had to mature at a very young age to take care of him specifically because he is so gullible and honestly fucking stupid
he is still so immature at the age of 21. he hasn't change at all since he was 12 or 13
i remember. i wont forget. i cant forget
i am a victim of cocsa; child on child sexual assault. my brother [transgender, female at birth] raped me [also trangender, female at birth]
i do not remember our exact ages, but i know it happened. he also tried to kill me about 5 to 7 times around the same age, mostly by strangulation. i passed out once from immediate memory, but he would always let go way too early to really do anything
he regularly blames me for 2 scars that he had; on his hand and stomach. for his hand, he says i slashed a razor at him but i was too young to remember [though i am 90% sure that happened because a treadmill accident? he has changed the story]. the scar on his stomach is from me biting him very hard, i do remember that. it was self defense when he came into my room as i was cleaning and wanted to used my charger even thought i needed it and started hitting me because i said no. i was also very hungry because i refused to eat until i was done cleaning
today, i try to keep as far from him as i can but he always finds a way back in. he is manipulative and uses his own experiences against everyone
he still regularly hits me and tries to manipulate me
he was only ever in the psych ward because he begged to go and cut himself specifically so they would let him. he only has a therapist and medication because he said he would kill himself if they didn't lwt hom
i hate him. i think truly hate him
whenever i got an infection from a failed OD [injected] he would pull and poke at my arm because i would cry from how it hurt. this was in 2024
he is almost 21. i am almost 19
we have a very small age gap of only 2 years but he acts like he is my parent, and he always has even if he has never had the pressure to. he wants to pretend like he was forced to parent me even though number 1; he isn't even the oldest [he is the second youngest of the four of us siblings], and number 2; i had to mature at a very young age to take care of him specifically because he is so gullible and honestly fucking stupid
he is still so immature at the age of 21. he hasn't change at all since he was 12 or 13
i remember. i wont forget. i cant forget
i am a victim of cocsa; child on child sexual assault. my brother [transgender, female at birth] raped me [also trangender, female at birth]
i do not remember our exact ages, but i know it happened. he also tried to kill me about 5 to 7 times around the same age, mostly by strangulation. i passed out once from immediate memory, but he would always let go way too early to really do anything
he regularly blames me for 2 scars that he had; on his hand and stomach. for his hand, he says i slashed a razor at him but i was too young to remember [though i am 90% sure that happened because a treadmill accident? he has changed the story]. the scar on his stomach is from me biting him very hard, i do remember that. it was self defense when he came into my room as i was cleaning and wanted to used my charger even thought i needed it and started hitting me because i said no. i was also very hungry because i refused to eat until i was done cleaning
today, i try to keep as far from him as i can but he always finds a way back in. he is manipulative and uses his own experiences against everyone
he still regularly hits me and tries to manipulate me
he was only ever in the psych ward because he begged to go and cut himself specifically so they would let him. he only has a therapist and medication because he said he would kill himself if they didn't lwt hom
i hate him. i think truly hate him
whenever i got an infection from a failed OD [injected] he would pull and poke at my arm because i would cry from how it hurt. this was in 2024
