Venting my brain keeps giving me this false sense of hope…

[Le temps perdu]

when I was feeling passively suicidal, I always get this feeling that my life hasn't really begun, and yet it's already coming to an end. I feel like I haven't experienced anything truly meaningful&joyful. I've been experiencing anhedonia recently, but when I watch musical films, my longing for the ideal life I imagine for myself abroad comes rushing back. and every time that false sense of hope starts to creep in, I will start doomscrolling through r/antinatalism to cope…I feel like my current state is pathetic.

 

[telekon]

I've never been to that subreddit but I just read on there, "I'm the series finale of my bloodline" and that made me laugh

 

[EmployedHikikomori]

That's not new our brains have evolved to keep us alive. Where do you think SI came from?