Never have I ever been good at something, even with all of my efforts put into it. God just made me terrible for his own enjoyment. So many times have I tried with all my soul to get good at least with one thing, I failed every time.
It can't just be me. Well it can, nobody promised me anything but pain and suffering. "If you don't work your ass off for these assignments you will be nothing in life", and now I'm failing again, one whole year late and still won't graduate, I'll never do. I can't understand basic math concepts who says I will graduate?
But I was a child prodigy! So smart! Like I wasn't putting all my efforts into my studies, I didn't want to get beat up again, no more.
What a double edged sword puberty is, when I couldn't feel the beatings they stopped hitting me, but that ended up in a dead me. I realized that I was nothing in this world if I didn't satisfy my parents, but they were never satisfied. Even when I had good grades my parents asked the teachers to lower them because I wasn't "good enough ". Am I now better? I barely exist anymore.
It can't just be me. Well it can, nobody promised me anything but pain and suffering. "If you don't work your ass off for these assignments you will be nothing in life", and now I'm failing again, one whole year late and still won't graduate, I'll never do. I can't understand basic math concepts who says I will graduate?
But I was a child prodigy! So smart! Like I wasn't putting all my efforts into my studies, I didn't want to get beat up again, no more.
What a double edged sword puberty is, when I couldn't feel the beatings they stopped hitting me, but that ended up in a dead me. I realized that I was nothing in this world if I didn't satisfy my parents, but they were never satisfied. Even when I had good grades my parents asked the teachers to lower them because I wasn't "good enough ". Am I now better? I barely exist anymore.
