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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
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I was wondering, bcs ever since I can remember I have been called weird by my family members. Granted, I did some weird stuff and had strange interests I guess, but idk. In kindergarten and elementary school I used to draw a lot, and the only thing I ever drew was violence and war and I don't even know why, I'm not a violent person. My parents told me that I wanted to look at WW2 books, when I was just 4 years old. In elementary school I started drawing quite elaborate war scenarios, I really liked doing that. Also I've always been told that I have a very melancholic personality, like that I don't often show positive emotions or don't act euphoric. It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either. I could never really fit in, not even when it comes to my own family
 
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It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something.
Exactly this. To the point that I never liked getting gifts. I would act so strangely. Or to a compliment.

Yes, was always a bit off. Strange interests. Not traditional boys things like hunting or cars, even though my dad was very much into that stuff. I was too quiet for all that. But thinking back just generally awkward at all ages. Never just comfortable.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,617
Yes. Weirdos as a kid, as a teen and as an adult. But now I know it's because I'm neurodivergent and probably 90% chances of being autistic. So I've accepted my weirdness. Sometimes I like being weird because I find normies quite boring.
 
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hughmun9

hughmun9

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Feb 22, 2023
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not really since I faked my ass off. I barely let a drop of my real personality shine through. I fit in but it was so so exhausting, so much so that at some point I grew tired of hearing my own voice, and shut myself off from the world for a couple of years in my early 20s. Speaking to a person literally maybe once every 3 months or so.

It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either
In that exact scenario I would just fake being enthusiastic and hug everyone and smile and act jolly. Didn't give a crap on the inside.
 
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whatsleftover

whatsleftover

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I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something.
i could do it but awkwardly. even when gifted with something i desired, i would have to rehearse to myself how to act, circling in my room making faces to myself, going in for the hug, etc.
 
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Vera1997

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Jun 16, 2026
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Yes. I was quite weird.
Sometimes I suspect I have autism because in hindsight, I had a lot of signs in my childhood.

But at this point I am 29 & trying to die before 30 so I don't have the motivation to get tested for it.
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
609
I'm 36 and still considered the weird kid. The more time passes, the more I just stay silent - I don't feel like trying to fit in anymore. I'm getting closer.
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
642
Exactly this. To the point that I never liked getting gifts. I would act so strangely. Or to a compliment.
Yeah I started to actually dislike getting gifted. And sometimes gifts also come with certain expectations and I never rlly liked that
not really since I faked my ass off. I barely let a drop of my real personality shine through. I fit in but it was so so exhausting, so much so that at some point I grew tired of hearing my own voice, and shut myself off from the world for a couple of years in my early 20s
That's eerily similar to me I think, I did everything to fit in during high school (for 8 years) and now as I'm in my early 20s I have kinda isolated myself, which I regret now, but idk, I was just so exhausted and I wouldn't expect anyone around me to get that. I started abusing benzos when I was still in high school just to make socialising easier
i could do it but awkwardly. even when gifted with something i desired, i would have to rehearse to myself how to act, circling in my room making faces to myself, going in for the hug, etc.
I kinda still do that. Think abt what exactly I'm going to say to a specific person and then rehearse it a few times
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
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Bro I was into anime and video games in the 90s. Can not get much "weirder" than that. For all you kiddos out there, these things used to not be cool and would immediately make you a social outcast.

I was also a "tomboy" which was not nearly as acceptable then as it is now. (Bless my grandmother who insisted on buying me dolls instead of action figures)

As a kid, it definitely took a toll on me but I would not trade it for the world. I watch so many people now run themselves ragged trying to confrom to the mold on social media or do things they do not like just so their not really "friends" will think they are cool. Nah man. I will live alone if it means I get to be myself.
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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Bro I was into anime and video games in the 90s. Can not get much "weirder" than that. For all you kiddos out there, these things used to not be cool and would immediately make you a social outcast.

I was also a "tomboy" which was not nearly as acceptable then as it is now. (Bless my grandmother who insisted on buying me dolls instead of action figures)

As a kid, it definitely took a toll on me but I would not trade it for the world. I watch so many people now run themselves ragged trying to confrom to the mold on social media or do things they do not like just so their not really "friends" will think they are cool. Nah man. I will live alone if it means I get to be myself.
Yeah I guess you were super early with your interests, now anime and video games are literally everywhere. I'm not sure, but I think anime and manga became more popular in the early 2000s, right? I think it's cool that you stuck with your interests despite everything
 
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Forveleth

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Yeah I guess you were super early with your interests, now anime and video games are literally everywhere. I'm not sure, but I think anime and manga became more popular in the early 2000s, right? I think it's cool that you stuck with your interests despite everything
Yeah, I was already in college when they got popular. Of course then the stigma was liking "kids stuff". Societal acceptance got there eventually though. 😅
 
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ardea

she/her | is there cheese in the great beyond?
May 17, 2026
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I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either. I could never really fit in, not even when it comes to my own family
I can relate to that. I think I just generally don't show emotion very well, so I'm regularly asked why I'm so stoic and serious in situations where I'm actually exited. once when I got a job as a lifeguard a friend let me know that everyone thought I was creepy. I was just doing my job while being generally confused and not talking much.

I've always had some glaringly obvious weird traits, but anyone I care about the opinion of tends to get used to them. I was placed in special ed in first grade, so I kinda lucked into being friends with a bunch of similarly peculiar kids (practically all neurodivergent, and mostly trans or otherwise queer). plus I'm trans, so that's odd enough as it is. my friends keep saying I'm autistic, so I looked at the diagnostic criteria and listed traits of mine that are consistent with it and got thirty or so. idk if it's worth the hassle of getting tested now that I'm an adult tho.
 
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Set Real Goul

Set Real Goul

Does'next on the menu' ring a bell for ya...normie
Jul 10, 2026
197
people considered me either a good kid or a weird one when I was a child/teenager. I remember our chemistry teacher was really into esotericism and all sorts of that kind of bullshit. Anyone from a postsov country might know that movie about the "memory of water." She showed it to us completely unironically
So, one day she started doing readings and saying something about each of us, and she said that I was a dark and mysterious person and that I had a dangerous egregore

The geography teacher once said that I was quite a mysterious and quiet person, and that I would suffer because of it.
Once, when I was on duty at school with my friend, a girl came up to me and said that I was someone you couldn't really communicate normally with. Just out of nowhere, for no reason at all — and I was literally just talking to my friend, lol
And my father thinks I'm not proper/correct enough
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Stirb nicht vor mir
Jul 19, 2026
702
When I was a child I was considered extremely weird for being as quiet and dependent as I was, boys would tell nuns that I was evil because I'd tell anyone who had a crush on me that we'd now have to be married forever and I'd die for them someday
When I was in middle school I was considered weird for always being reserved and not talking to anyone and for listening to "weird music" and dressing strange, I developed some pretty bad anger issues and beat up a few guys for pissing me off which just solidified that no one wanted me around, teachers kept going back and forth on how I was a genius and the dumbest person on the planet
In high school I was still the reserved kid that no one liked, I avoided people and kept in my little bubble and never really cared to befriend anyone, one teacher took a liking to me but he was a man and it went about as great as any "liking" is when you're 16 w daddy issues and being doted on by a 47 year old, most of the other teachers hated me for standing up to them n messing everything up
Ehmm after I was kicked out of that school it kinda like, idk, it's been the same
People meet me, find me interesting, then they realize I'm way too much for them in every way and so they end up leaving
I actually remember my first proper relationship when I was 13 to 15, left me for being too ill and said I'd never find someone who's willing to handle me, said (and I remember this all too well) "you're a constantly overflowing teacup, you cry into it and you leak out and you expect me to take you in but you're too fucking much, at some point my own cup is fuller of you than of me"
So I guess I've always been like this
Obsessive and autistic and kinda pathetic
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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I can relate to that. I think I just generally don't show emotion very well, so I'm regularly asked why I'm so stoic and serious in situations where I'm actually exited. once when I got a job as a lifeguard a friend let me know that everyone thought I was creepy. I was just doing my job while being generally confused and not talking much.

I've always had some glaringly obvious weird traits, but anyone I care about the opinion of tends to get used to them. I was placed in special ed in first grade, so I kinda lucked into being friends with a bunch of similarly peculiar kids (practically all neurodivergent, and mostly trans or otherwise queer). plus I'm trans, so that's odd enough as it is. my friends keep saying I'm autistic, so I looked at the diagnostic criteria and listed traits of mine that are consistent with it and got thirty or so. idk if it's worth the hassle of getting tested now that I'm an adult tho.
Yeah I also have difficulties with showing emotions. In high school everyone was always impressed that I looked so calm during important exams or when they announced the grades. I wasn't calm at all tho, just looked like it ig. It's interesting how other people perceive you sometimes. It's cool that you have friends who you share similarities with and with whom you can be comfortable
people considered me either a good kid or a weird one when I was a child/teenager. I remember our chemistry teacher was really into esotericism and all sorts of that kind of bullshit. Anyone from a postsov country might know that movie about the "memory of water." She showed it to us completely unironically
So, one day she started doing readings and saying something about each of us, and she said that I was a dark and mysterious person and that I had a dangerous egregore

The geography teacher once said that I was quite a mysterious and quiet person, and that I would suffer because of it.
Once, when I was on duty at school with my friend, a girl came up to me and said that I was someone you couldn't really communicate normally with. Just out of nowhere, for no reason at all — and I was literally just talking to my friend, lol
And my father thinks I'm not proper/correct enough
You def had a weird chemistry teacher, kinda reminds me of that one teacher in Harry Potter, who predicts people's fates
 
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limenlux

limenlux

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Jul 12, 2026
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I was definitely an unusual child. I was bullied and withdrawn, in part due to skipping a grade and not adjusting very well, on top of being in a Malcolm in the Middle-esque "Krelboyne" class. I developed a lot of displaced anger issues.

A few years into taking piano lessons, I became obsessed with Mozart and watched 1984's Amadeus repeatedly, which is a wildly inappropriate film for a child; it's funny to look back upon, actually. (Don't worry, I've since moved on to Dvorak.)

Not long after I started wrestling and puberty hit me like Captain America's super-soldier serum, I moved school districts and developed a split identity of varsity jacket wearing turbo-jock by day, and tabletop RPG GM, PC gamer, goth music fan by night. It was exhausting, and I didn't fully "integrate" into one person until I was nearly 30.
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
642
When I was a child I was considered extremely weird for being as quiet and dependent as I was, boys would tell nuns that I was evil because I'd tell anyone who had a crush on me that we'd now have to be married forever and I'd die for them someday
When I was in middle school I was considered weird for always being reserved and not talking to anyone and for listening to "weird music" and dressing strange, I developed some pretty bad anger issues and beat up a few guys for pissing me off which just solidified that no one wanted me around, teachers kept going back and forth on how I was a genius and the dumbest person on the planet
In high school I was still the reserved kid that no one liked, I avoided people and kept in my little bubble and never really cared to befriend anyone, one teacher took a liking to me but he was a man and it went about as great as any "liking" is when you're 16 w daddy issues and being doted on by a 47 year old, most of the other teachers hated me for standing up to them n messing everything up
Ehmm after I was kicked out of that school it kinda like, idk, it's been the same
People meet me, find me interesting, then they realize I'm way too much for them in every way and so they end up leaving
I actually remember my first proper relationship when I was 13 to 15, left me for being too ill and said I'd never find someone who's willing to handle me, said (and I remember this all too well) "you're a constantly overflowing teacup, you cry into it and you leak out and you expect me to take you in but you're too fucking much, at some point my own cup is fuller of you than of me"
So I guess I've always been like this
Obsessive and autistic and kinda pathetic
I think in some way it kinda messes with you and the perception you have of yourself. Like when you're always told, even by people who are close to you that you're weird and that sth might be wrong with you, you'll start to believe it as well eventually. And also it's just not a nice thing to say, bcs usually it carries a negative connotation. Idk, there isn't even anything wrong with being weird, but for most ppl, anything that's even slightly different is considered as sth bad for some reason.
I hope you find people, who stick with you no matter what. I think those people exist, it's just very hard to find em
 
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Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
292
I was always considered a wierd kid mostly because of my condition tbh
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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A few years into taking piano lessons, I became obsessed with Mozart and watched 1984's Amadeus repeatedly, which is a wildly inappropriate film for a child; it's funny to look back upon, actually. (Don't worry, I've since moved on to Dvorak.)
That's for sure and interesting movie to become obsessed with, tho there are prob way worse. I think we watched it in school actually, during musical education. I never realised that it was such an old movie
 
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limenlux

limenlux

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Jul 12, 2026
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That's for sure and interesting movie to become obsessed with, tho there are prob way worse. I think we watched it in school actually, during musical education. I never realised that it was such an old movie
I was also introduced to it through a music class in which the teacher frantically fast-forwarded through Tom Hulce's ass and the assorted bits of vulgarity.
 
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Gild-Holm-’Ur

Gild-Holm-’Ur

Ghost of relationships past
Jun 28, 2026
147
I once took a highlighter and colored my entire body yellow to convince my teacher I had jaundice. Is that weird? I feel like it is.
 
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nightmare-receiver

nightmare-receiver

in the trenches
Jun 7, 2026
28
I was totally a weird kid, lol. I was always trying to find out what made everyone else so likable to other people. I'd ask my parents for different socks for basketball, different headbands, anything I had convinced myself might be the reason for why everyone thought I was weird. I was never mean or violent as a kid, I was probably insufferably nice. I think the other kids might have known there was something that made me different before I knew myself. I ended up coming out as trans later, and somehow it made me feel less weird. I guess I just feel more comfortable with the fact that even if people think it's weird, I've fought really hard to be myself instead of continuing to try and make myself look or behave like someone else. Even though I was a weird kid, I look back on my childhood fondly.
 
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Ashmiau

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Jun 2, 2023
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I was bullied relentlessly in middle school and the beginning of high school because of my inability to socialize. Things slowly improved after I lost weight, and I thought I had come into my own; however, I still struggled to interact with others. People would try to talk to me, but I would struggle to relate with them and they would stop trying after a few conversations. I really don't know what is wrong with me. Sometimes I think I'm incapable of performing basic human functions.
 
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UglyLife82

UglyLife82

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Feb 25, 2025
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Not really. Overly shy and reserved, but not weird (I think)
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
133
Yes.

And everyone just wanted to clip my wings.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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Yes and I still feel that way now. I was called weird and made to feel like the way I existed was weird and wrong. Undiagnosed Autism for 23 years will do that😭
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
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i have been from the start, even my kindergarten teacher told my mom i'd never be popular. now im not as weird and outcast as i was (tho getting there again as my depression gets worse and worse), and being in theatre helps because there's lots of weirdos, but even so i think im seen to be a bit weird and not as good at social stuff.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

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I was wondering, bcs ever since I can remember I have been called weird by my family members. Granted, I did some weird stuff and had strange interests I guess, but idk. In kindergarten and elementary school I used to draw a lot, and the only thing I ever drew was violence and war and I don't even know why, I'm not a violent person. My parents told me that I wanted to look at WW2 books, when I was just 4 years old. In elementary school I started drawing quite elaborate war scenarios, I really liked doing that. Also I've always been told that I have a very melancholic personality, like that I don't often show positive emotions or don't act euphoric. It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either. I could never really fit in, not even when it comes to my own family
Thanks for sharing your experience. That's actually very interesting. If we believe in Brian Weiss concept of reincarnation, possibly you were someone related with ww2 in a previous birth. Like it could be a possibility
We are all misfits, different from others, more sensitive to our surroundings, some of us are exceptionally talented in different areas. I interacted with a member, he's very intelligent and successful at his academics. Someone is great at poetry. While someone is great at arts. Someone might be talented in music or dance.
 
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passthisnote

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May 6, 2026
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I was wondering, bcs ever since I can remember I have been called weird by my family members. Granted, I did some weird stuff and had strange interests I guess, but idk. In kindergarten and elementary school I used to draw a lot, and the only thing I ever drew was violence and war and I don't even know why, I'm not a violent person. My parents told me that I wanted to look at WW2 books, when I was just 4 years old. In elementary school I started drawing quite elaborate war scenarios, I really liked doing that. Also I've always been told that I have a very melancholic personality, like that I don't often show positive emotions or don't act euphoric. It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either. I could never really fit in, not even when it comes to my own family
yes i grew up with unrestricted internet access and i wasn't allowed to go outside so really no matter how hard i tried to fit in it always felt obvious that i was more odd than the rest
 
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lastappleonearth

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i have been from the start, even my kindergarten teacher told my mom i'd never be popular. now im not as weird and outcast as i was (tho getting there again as my depression gets worse and worse), and being in theatre helps because there's lots of weirdos, but even so i think im seen to be a bit weird and not as good at social stuff.
That's a mean thing for a kindergarten teacher to say, kinda overstepping boundaries a bit. Idk, I never understood why some teachers just have to be cruel. In my high school there even was a teacher who engaged in bullying a student
yes i grew up with unrestricted internet access and i wasn't allowed to go outside so really no matter how hard i tried to fit in it always felt obvious that i was more odd than the rest
Yeah getting unrestricted internet access too early is never a good thing. I think I got it when I was 10, but idk it's even worse for the younger generation now. My cousin alr knew at 4 how to perfectly operate a smartphone
 
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