Discussion Were you considered a weird kid?

[lastappleonearth]

I was wondering, bcs ever since I can remember I have been called weird by my family members. Granted, I did some weird stuff and had strange interests I guess, but idk. In kindergarten and elementary school I used to draw a lot, and the only thing I ever drew was violence and war and I don't even know why, I'm not a violent person. My parents told me that I wanted to look at WW2 books, when I was just 4 years old. In elementary school I started drawing quite elaborate war scenarios, I really liked doing that. Also I've always been told that I have a very melancholic personality, like that I don't often show positive emotions or don't act euphoric. It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either. I could never really fit in, not even when it comes to my own family

 

[itsgone2]

It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something.

Exactly this. To the point that I never liked getting gifts. I would act so strangely. Or to a compliment.

Yes, was always a bit off. Strange interests. Not traditional boys things like hunting or cars, even though my dad was very much into that stuff. I was too quiet for all that. But thinking back just generally awkward at all ages. Never just comfortable.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yes. Weirdos as a kid, as a teen and as an adult. But now I know it's because I'm neurodivergent and probably 90% chances of being autistic. So I've accepted my weirdness. Sometimes I like being weird because I find normies quite boring.

 

[hughmun9]

not really since I faked my ass off. I barely let a drop of my real personality shine through. I fit in but it was so so exhausting, so much so that at some point I grew tired of hearing my own voice, and shut myself off from the world for a couple of years in my early 20s. Speaking to a person literally maybe once every 3 months or so.

It was always irritating when ppl were upset, bcs I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something. It's not like I do that on purpose, I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't want to fake it either

In that exact scenario I would just fake being enthusiastic and hug everyone and smile and act jolly. Didn't give a crap on the inside.

 

[whatsleftover]

I couldn't act euphoric after being gifted something.

i could do it but awkwardly. even when gifted with something i desired, i would have to rehearse to myself how to act, circling in my room making faces to myself, going in for the hug, etc.

 

[Vera1997]

Yes. I was quite weird.
Sometimes I suspect I have autism because in hindsight, I had a lot of signs in my childhood.

But at this point I am 29 & trying to die before 30 so I don't have the motivation to get tested for it.

 

[hdead]

I'm 36 and still considered the weird kid. The more time passes, the more I just stay silent - I don't feel like trying to fit in anymore. I'm getting closer.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Exactly this. To the point that I never liked getting gifts. I would act so strangely. Or to a compliment.

Yeah I started to actually dislike getting gifted. And sometimes gifts also come with certain expectations and I never rlly liked that

not really since I faked my ass off. I barely let a drop of my real personality shine through. I fit in but it was so so exhausting, so much so that at some point I grew tired of hearing my own voice, and shut myself off from the world for a couple of years in my early 20s

That's eerily similar to me I think, I did everything to fit in during high school (for 8 years) and now as I'm in my early 20s I have kinda isolated myself, which I regret now, but idk, I was just so exhausted and I wouldn't expect anyone around me to get that. I started abusing benzos when I was still in high school just to make socialising easier

i could do it but awkwardly. even when gifted with something i desired, i would have to rehearse to myself how to act, circling in my room making faces to myself, going in for the hug, etc.

I kinda still do that. Think abt what exactly I'm going to say to a specific person and then rehearse it a few times

 

[Forveleth]

Bro I was into anime and video games in the 90s. Can not get much "weirder" than that. For all you kiddos out there, these things used to not be cool and would immediately make you a social outcast.

I was also a "tomboy" which was not nearly as acceptable then as it is now. (Bless my grandmother who insisted on buying me dolls instead of action figures)

As a kid, it definitely took a toll on me but I would not trade it for the world. I watch so many people now run themselves ragged trying to confrom to the mold on social media or do things they do not like just so their not really "friends" will think they are cool. Nah man. I will live alone if it means I get to be myself.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Bro I was into anime and video games in the 90s. Can not get much "weirder" than that. For all you kiddos out there, these things used to not be cool and would immediately make you a social outcast.

I was also a "tomboy" which was not nearly as acceptable then as it is now. (Bless my grandmother who insisted on buying me dolls instead of action figures)

As a kid, it definitely took a toll on me but I would not trade it for the world. I watch so many people now run themselves ragged trying to confrom to the mold on social media or do things they do not like just so their not really "friends" will think they are cool. Nah man. I will live alone if it means I get to be myself.

Yeah I guess you were super early with your interests, now anime and video games are literally everywhere. I'm not sure, but I think anime and manga became more popular in the early 2000s, right? I think it's cool that you stuck with your interests despite everything

 

[Forveleth]

Yeah I guess you were super early with your interests, now anime and video games are literally everywhere. I'm not sure, but I think anime and manga became more popular in the early 2000s, right? I think it's cool that you stuck with your interests despite everything

Yeah, I was already in college when they got popular. Of course then the stigma was liking "kids stuff". Societal acceptance got there eventually though.