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Bruces

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May 11, 2020
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Apparently the psilocybin in magic mushrooms works wonders for depression and anxiety,anybody have experience?
 
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Sinai Silence

I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Jul 6, 2020
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Someone I know micro doses psilocybin to help with his depression and he doesn't even take his medication anymore. I'm looking forward for picking season so I can try it for myself. It doesn't work for everyone though, it can induce psychosis with some people. If you're considering doing it make sure you're with someone when you try it.
 
Abgrundanziehung

Abgrundanziehung

or Abi for short
Jun 24, 2020
216
Yes. Dosed once. Changed my perspective considerably, even with serious anxiety, depression, ptsd & apparent autism. Hard to describe the feeling like a lot of people say. It's been a couple years since then and I can still clearly remember how it made me feel. It broke open my mind and soul. I need to get the motivation to learn how to grow them myself!
 
EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
689
Yes. Dosed once. Changed my perspective considerably, even with serious anxiety, depression, ptsd & apparent autism. Hard to describe the feeling like a lot of people say. It's been a couple years since then and I can still clearly remember how it made me feel. It broke open my mind and soul. I need to get the motivation to learn how to grow them myself!

Have you gotten around to using those Hawaiian Woodrose Seeds?
 
MYStERY_Man

MYStERY_Man

The 't' is silent
Jul 15, 2020
225
I have some.

Started with 6g, then 3g, 1g, 2g, 2g.

Following Shroomery's trip levels, I'd rate them level 5, 3, 1, 2, 2.

Not many visuals though, changes in brightness and saturation for sure. Tunnel vision for a few moments during the 3g experience. Wider field of view while laying in bed during the 6g experience. I could maybe see some fractals when I closed my eyes, but it was almost like they were behind a thick layer of silk.

Mentally it can be tough, but it gets much better once you surrender to the experience. 3g gave me a panic attack as I noticed some effects were approaching those of the 6g, which I didn't intend to do. I even called a cab to the ER, but backed off and got into a bus to get back home. Played some Hearthstone to relax and laid in bed for the rest of the experience.

Aside from the 1g experience, which was just too recreational, I always get the realization that I want to die, but not in a negative way if that makes sense. It doesn't bring me closer to CBT than alcohol. I also find joy in just looking around and chuckling for no reason like a baby. And I like to look in the mirror and get lost in thoughts, which some people hate. Music sounds amazing. I usually get goal and a push to reach it (buy a guitar, apply for that job, keep focused and finish College). Simple things, but would be surprisingly difficult to do without that small nudge.

It hasn't been permanent for me, but I think it's worth a try. Preferably do the other way around, don't start with 6g.

Have you gotten around to using those Hawaiian Woodrose Seeds?

HBWR literally only makes me nauseous and tired. I don't get it. Tried sublingual, cold water extraction, 2 different sources.
 
Emily_Numb

Emily_Numb

Wizard
Jan 14, 2020
657
I've used them both as full trips and microdoses. If you are going to look to microdose please make sure you are in fact microdosing. Microdosing is a tiny dose where you will not feel any state of euphoria whatsoever. As someone who makes microdoses for people 1g isn't even classed as a genuine microdose. Lots of people overdo it and you should only ever dose once every 3 days and keep a diary of your mood. Microdoses definitely work for some people but not everyone. The psychosis comes from people not taking small enough doses and dosing too regularly.

My advice would be to take a mild trip. Experiment with a ⅓rd of a full dose and see if it clears your mind. Less is more when it comes to hallucinogenics. Then try again in 3-4 weeks and increase the dose if you feel safe and comfortable to do so. You may not even feel like you need to do it again. I find taking a dose is good for mental blockages and stagnation. Don't take full trips on a very regular basis though. I read about idiots on Reddit taking 2-3 tabs of LSD on a semi regular basis all the time. You are totally losing it's beneficial effects then. You are taking it to get 'messed up'. These sort of drugs can be medicine if you treat them with the respect they deserve.

I'm not sure where in the world you are from but you may have better luck trying to source Magic Truffles, they are somewhat of a grey area in terms of legality. The mushroom is the fruiting body above ground, the truffle is the 'root' bit underground. I have taken these far more than I have mushrooms. They keep longer and are far easier to make microdoses out of.
 
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I_love_to_bake

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Feb 27, 2020
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Based on my picture, nobody will be surprised to see me in this thread...

Be careful with microdosing, the famous guy Rekless was up to 2 doses daily of psilocybin when he had a psychotic break and ctb.

My experience is only with full doses. And each experience was completely different from one another, in every way. Do not underestimate mushrooms because the danger is that you will not notice your own delusions in rationality... because your own rationality always makes sense from your perspective.

Terrence McKenna is a great source of experience... but he himself was clearly psychotic at times and did die of a brain tumor after years of psychadelic abuse.

I would say, if you are truly desperate, then it could be worth looking into. But remember that you are responsible for the safety of others as well as yourself. A lot of people are afraid to talk about the dangers. Some have commited sexual assault while under the influence. I have seen it. You don't want to. Ask yourself: am I okay with losing control for 3-4 hours and being delusional for 24?

Me personally, I once blacked out and woke up with broken glasses because I hit my head on the ground.

It will change your life. Be careful. And bring a journal.
 
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Intheo

Student
Jul 1, 2020
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I'm not sure where in the world you are from but you may have better luck trying to source Magic Truffles, they are somewhat of a grey area in terms of legality. The mushroom is the fruiting body above ground, the truffle is the 'root' bit underground. I have taken these far more than I have mushrooms. They keep longer and are far easier to make microdoses out of.

Truffles are the reason I'm in legal trouble and potentially confronting the end of my life. So I would suggest anyone to do their research on the legality of these things.

Based on the amount of scientific research and anecdotal reports, it seems psychedelics including mdma, have great healing powers but they have to be used properly. Do your research and treat them with respect. I really wish these compounds could be legalized for therapeutic uses.
 
Emily_Numb

Emily_Numb

Wizard
Jan 14, 2020
657
Truffles are the reason I'm in legal trouble and potentially confronting the end of my life. So I would suggest anyone to do their research on the legality of these things.

Based on the amount of scientific research and anecdotal reports, it seems psychedelics including mdma, have great healing powers but they have to be used properly. Do your research and treat them with respect. I really wish these compounds could be legalized for therapeutic uses.
Woah. I'm not sure what country you are in. That sounds pretty harsh. I'm in the UK and import them all the time from Amsterdam. If they get stopped at customs and they send me a letter, I just ignore it. They can't prove that I ordered them thanks to lovely bitcoin :pfff:
 
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Intheo

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Jul 1, 2020
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Woah. I'm not sure what country you are in. That sounds pretty harsh. I'm in the UK and import them all the time from Amsterdam. If they get stopped at customs and they send me a letter, I just ignore it. They can't prove that I ordered them thanks to lovely bitcoin :pfff:
Yep my country has nonsensical drug laws. I could go out right now and drink myself to death with cheap, crappy booze, and that's perfectly legal. But someone wants to get high off of some mushrooms by himself? He needs to be stopped.
 
GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
738
Woah. I'm not sure what country you are in. That sounds pretty harsh. I'm in the UK and import them all the time from Amsterdam. If they get stopped at customs and they send me a letter, I just ignore it. They can't prove that I ordered them thanks to lovely bitcoin :pfff:
Hey is Bitcoin necessary d'you think (NED>UK)? And is it a hassle to sort out?
 
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Emily_Numb

Wizard
Jan 14, 2020
657
Hey is Bitcoin necessary d'you think (NED>UK)? And is it a hassle to sort out?
They only accept bitcoin. It's not that difficult to sort out. I just downloaded Coinbase and then linked up my bank account to transfer funds into coinbase then use that to pay for my transaction with bitcoin.
 
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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
738
Some accept £££ though? I can't really be arsed with dark web shit. I mean i just got some SN from Ukraine no problem.
 
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Emily_Numb

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Jan 14, 2020
657
Some accept £££ though? I can't really be arsed with dark web shit. I mean i just got some SN from Ukraine no problem.
It's not dark web. Clear web. Up to you what you use and where you buy it from. The place I use is legit, clear web, but only accepts bitcoin
 
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LonelyNick

They/Them, He/Him
Jul 15, 2020
262
I'm having some right now hahaha!! I never micro dosed, I usually do 2g, I never hallucinated but I love the feeling of euphoria. I always to them on my birthday, it's a must. I have left over this year so I'm doing some tonight to chill. I love the feeling of happiness!
 
Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
I'm having some right now hahaha!! I never micro dosed, I usually do 2g, I never hallucinated but I love the feeling of euphoria. I always to them on my birthday, it's a must. I have left over this year so I'm doing some tonight to chill. I love the feeling of happiness!
I'm actually on about 1-1.5g right now. Definitely helps with depression, though the pupil dilation makes it hard to conceal in public.
 
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TooConscious

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Sep 16, 2020
1,149
Can anyone please advise me how to purchase bitcoin in the UK...
I'd been using bit bargain for years never any problems unfortunately this year shut down so I'm really struggling with the frustration now,
coinbase won't accept my ID because the date has expired although the government have extended it because of the pandemic so it is technically valid. Which is annoying wasted hours and gave them my information which they'll no doubt now sell on to spam cold call companies etc.

If anyone can help would really appreciate it.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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I don't think magic mushrooms are legal in the uk. Pretty much the only way to get legit shrooms is probably through the darknet or if you know a reliable dealer.

I made a guide to the darknet markets once but it might be difficult for many people and it only covers the important parts.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/guide-to-the-darknet-markets.54422/
 
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TooConscious

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Sep 16, 2020
1,149
Well you can pick them in season BUT you need to be incredibly careful. Especially because of pollution the poisonous mushrooms are looking nearly identical to psilocybin mushrooms now through environmental deformation.
So a 1960's picking guide isn't much good in the 21st century.
 
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doge

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Feb 23, 2021
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Does someone know some sites in the clearweb to get mushrooms, truffles or others? It would be my first time, so I also dont know what to choose
 
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Donk

Useless since day 1
Jan 3, 2020
1,130
Anyone know of any good forums or sites for medicinal use of psilocybin? I know nothing about shrooms and would like to find a good launching pad similar to SS for CTB. Thanks in advance
 
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L I F E T O L O S E

only you can stop the evil
Sep 18, 2020
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I always bought them, they helped me a lot. they served as an inspiration, they held my soul and made my mind calm.
I already took 5 g left me completely unwell.
 
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notreallynow

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Oct 21, 2020
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I don't think magic mushrooms are legal in the uk. Pretty much the only way to get legit shrooms is probably through the darknet or if you know a reliable dealer.

I made a guide to the darknet markets once but it might be difficult for many people and it only covers the important parts.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/guide-to-the-darknet-markets.54422/

Spores are legal actually. They are sold as being for 'microscope research purposes' - so the site acts like you are going to buy something named Jedi Mindfuck purely to peer at the pretty spores through your monocle. But they are advertised as 'active', and because fungi cells have no respect for word of law, yes they will grow under the right conditions. They cost around a tenner per syringe. You might go through some failures but some sites will give discrete refunds if the product turns out to not be 'active' as advertised. And there are lots of communities online which help walkthrough the process of growing.

May have found someone who knows someone. If doesn't go through in next month, I might buy some for, research purposes
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Yes. Dosed once. Changed my perspective considerably, even with serious anxiety, depression, ptsd & apparent autism. Hard to describe the feeling like a lot of people say. It's been a couple years since then and I can still clearly remember how it made me feel. It broke open my mind and soul. I need to get the motivation to learn how to grow them myself!
It's really complicated! You have to grow them in a sterile environment because otherwise the bacteria contaminates them. Someone I know tried and they didn't grow and we don't know why. But would be magic if you did it! There are guides on the websites that sell the spores (in Europe).
Does someone know some sites in the clearweb to get mushrooms, truffles or others? It would be my first time, so I also dont know what to choose
they sell them legally on websites in the Netherlands. You would need to find one that ships to your location. If you are UK based, I'm not sure what Brexit has done to how parcels are checked, so that could be iffy, but might be worth asking the vendors for their thoughts on shipping and customs charges.
I have some but I don't know when to take them, as I am on St John's Wort which is an MAOI and it either boosts or diminishes their effects, according to which website you read. I tried taking 3 of them the other day as I was having a really bad day, and not sure whether they did anything at all. The depression studies at (can't remember which university in London) do the first dose at 10mg (I think that's right but check it) of psilocybin as a safety/test dose, then the next dose they got to 25mg. Of course, they have a therapist/sitter with the person etc. Which you can kind of do at home, though it's not quite the same. Also, I've posted this before, but in the research into tripping for depression they say music is important. So blindfold, headphones, playlist. The Jon Hopkins psilocybin playlist is on Spotify and I like it. But there are other ones out there depending on your musical taste. Interesting article I read said that the bias has been toward classical music in the past, but now they are opening that up and considering things like drumming and tribal music too. Mendel Kaelan also has a playlist, but for me I wasn't so into it. But the idea of the playlist is it helps shape your trip.

It could be worth trying microdosing first. But some people find bigger doses more helpful.

My first trip was very beautiful. it was a day off anxiety and glorious. Since then, I have not enjoyed them as much, but the research is still promising. Apparently if you can have an emotional release/an experience of transcendence then the impact on depression is better. I've never had either - on LSD or shrooms. Though I have recently been told that LSD is not what it used to be and it is hard to get, so maybe the stuff I have taken hasn't been that good (though I used to have 1PLSD when you could buy it online and that was probs quite legit.
 
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