Made myself so sick I can barely stand

[burninghill]

This happens too often.

I'm addicted to nicotine but the only pouches I have are too strong for me to take realistically without being sick. I feel uncomfortable if I'm not using so I had to.

Almost every time I stand I almost pass out so, probably not very smart to be making myself nic-sick every day. I had to run out of watching a film with my boyfriend because I was getting insane stomach cramps, dizzy and felt like I was going to throw up. I took a starburst to the bathroom with me to get some sugar in me but I just feel so pathetic and weak.

It's not serious I mean, it's a bit pathetic to be complaining over nic-sickness but it's really terrible. My whole body is shaky and I can barely walk right now.

I can't sleep. It's 4.41am and I took some herbal nytol because I was addicted to DPH which is in 'normal' sleep medications, but it's not working. Probably isn't helping. I sleep through breakfast and lunch so I've only been having dinner if I can be bothered. Usually it's just… crisps or sweets or whatever I have in my bedroom.

I don't know what to do with myself. I've become a really pathetic human being.

 

[meowpuppy]

this is really just my life, only to a far lesser degree, but i still have annoying nausea, it's hard to stand up, though due to anxiety, not due to sickness, i'm losing weight, i can't sleep..

i also have general mood swings and stuff because of psych withdrawal, and i usually skip dinner because my breakfast is around 3PM and my lunch is around 7PM, and there's no food cooked in the house after 7PM for obvious reasons. so my mom buys me sweets and stuff that i can snack on while it's late at night, but now she's stopped doing that, and i've started getting more nausea from lots of meals..

also, i've decided temporarily not to kill myself, so i have no idea what i wanna do or be. just waiting for new books, reading those books, getting bad memory fog because of psych withdrawal due to those books..

 

[MaggotMuncher202]

Fucking same. But just with alcohol. It's just constant pain I'm putting myself through everyday. Can't think, can't walk, can't do anything because I just make myself sick. But I can't fathom functioning without it. It's also the only thing I consume. I don't eat at all cuz eating food physically hurts.

A few days ago this guy I've been seeing and I went to the movies and we had to leave early due to how sick I was. I ran to the bathroom to throw up a couple of times and ended up puking bright red alcohol all over myself like a fucking disgusting slob. It was at like 2pm too. Covered myself with my jacket and we left. Was a movie we were both excited to see too lmao. I've also been unable to sleep recently. I haven't taken any meds for it but it sucks so bad.

I'm sorry, hopefully you can find some sort of small relief from nic addiction.