Loneliest things you've ever done?

[DefinitelyReady]

Both are fitting for you, imo.

The Chariot is confident and aggressive. The Chariot would not fit someone who keeps everything bottled up, it would be for someone who speaks their mind. It's a card full of energy, and no one who has read some of your creative writings could deny that it's full of energy.

The Tower I think you'll find even more appropriate. The Tower is nothing like what I originally pictured when I played my first Persona game. I figured it was sturdy, structured. . . boring. No, the Tower is built on shaky ground and collapsing. It's a card of chaos and destruction, people are actually falling out of it. A real "let it burn and leave it behind" kind of deal. (I think of the Cure's "Doing the Unstuck" if you know it.) The Tower is a card saying you will put up with some shit and it will change you, but it is not a card of total devastation, as after the chaos something new and better can be built.

Geez lol... thanks. Shucks
It painted the Tower as symbolic for deep change and the Chariot as external change. Rebuilding of your Tower from the drive of your Chariot I suppose. I don't know if either fits me though :/ I can get in line with the internal change of the Tower, but actually giving rebirth to a foundational change requires the determination from the willpower that I just don't have via the Chariot lol.
I think you have a real knack for explaining and demonstrating these things though. Could even be a side job Mr. Cleo
Although it's curious or just sheer luck that I calculated my mom's and it seemed to be rather accurate May be something to this magic.
Wonder how accurate yours was.

 

[derpyderpins]

Geez lol... thanks. Shucks
It painted the Tower as symbolic for deep change and the Chariot as external change. Rebuilding of your Tower from the drive of your Chariot I suppose. I don't know if either fitme :/ I can get in line with the internal change of the Tower, but actually giving rebirth to a foundational change requires the determination from the willpower that I just don't have via the Chariot lol.

The answer would be that you can't rebuild the tower while you're still falling out of it. Gotta land and dust yourself off first.

I think you have a real knack for explaining and demonstrating these things though. Could even be a side job Mr. Cleo

haha thanks. I have a lot of fun with it.

Although it's curious or just sheer luck that I calculated my mom's and it seemed to be rather accurate May be something to this magic. Wonder how accurate yours was.

https://www.tarot.com/tarot/birth-cards-empress-hanged-man

Excessive Self-Sacrifice and procrastination are on-point and come up in my personality tests a lot. The cards aren't magic, though, imo they're just excellent at getting you thinking and reflecting. I could definitely talk a good bit about my cards.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I want to say jerking off to Chun-Li, but then I think every dude's done that at some point.

 

[amnesia999]

The thing that comes immediately to mind is being alone while having insomnia. I have pretty bad social anxiety, which makes it worse. Being alone and not able to sleep really sucks.

I was lucky enough to be able to spend a semester in Paris back in the mid-80s when I was in school. When I couldn't sleep, I'd get up and walk around the city by myself.

Later on, when I was out of school, I'd get in my car, go buy a pack of cigarettes, and drive the back roads, usually to the state capitol, which is about 50 miles away if you take the freeway.

 

[pilotviolin]

i have imaginary friends and i even get in conflict with them on rare occasions so idk why im admitting this but whatever ok so recently i got in a fight with an imaginary person and without the chattering in my head it really really hit me how isolated ive become.

i once travelled a bit alone then followed someone playing loud music and idk why i got some stupid childish thought that if i followed this person theyd lead to some adventure or group or what and i walked at least 5km (now i think about that id never do it again bc i would be spooked if i noticed).

the lonliest thing for me tho is the cycle itself, i can push myself out of my comfort zone but i self sabotage anyways. like you will feel so lonely and if youre not careful youll feel so awful and then ruin your own vibe to socialise idk shit like that.

 

[FlufflesAway]

Trying to create tulpas (imaginary friends). I gave up. Even my thoughts don't want to be around me. Listening to comfort asmrs. Doing everything alone. That's the default. I don't know how to do things with others.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Taken my Lucina plush out on dates. Multiple times. Either on her birthday, Valentines Day, or the anniversary of the day I married her ingame. I haven't done it in a while but it was definitely for multiple years in my early to mid 20s. When we went to restaurants and stuff I'd buy enough food for two people and just eat both meals like the pig I am. I also would buy two movie tickets. What really makes this even more pathetic is that I only ever dressed up for one of these dates once. The other times I just went in my usual clothes. I can't even be a good partner to a fictional character and that's why I've never gotten to go on a real date with a real human.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I had a doctor's appointment a few months ago, and I had to get something very painful done. Both the doctor and medical assistant were comforting me while I cried, and the medical assistant was holding my hand and telling me I was doing a good job. After my appointment I cried more because I realized no one has comforted me in person in so long