Enga
Member
- May 27, 2024
- 37
After of a couple of failed attempts I've lost the drive to try again, but I've never had any desire to live. So... what's next?... neither dead nor alive. What should I do? I feel completely lost.
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ThatGuyOverThere
David Benatar Enjoyer
- Apr 25, 2024
- 189
That's interesting way of putting it: "Living as an undead"
I feel this way all the time, my CTB is so far away (A few years), and yet all the while I try my hardest to pull back from society, so I feel like ghost, that doesn't actually exist, like the idea of me as a person, is more real than the physical reality of my conscious brain and physical body. My hermit life style has rendered me more a memory for the people I used to know, than that of someone they can actually interact with.
CouldaHvBeenARock
Farewell, My Concubine
- Nov 16, 2023
- 147
I am forced to live for now, so l just go about life like a zombie. Though I am back in school, a welcome distraction. Its like I am just waiting for the day to come when I can leave. All I can do is wait
Agon321
I use google translate
- Aug 21, 2023
- 1,654
I haven't attempted suicide yet, but I also live between life and death.
I don't think there is a golden solution to this problem.
The world is becoming more and more like a prison.
Enga
Member
- May 27, 2024
- 37
Well, there's more war and death every day. It's kinda feels relieving that you can be sent to war any day. But I don't have enough motivation to volunteer. I don't care about their conflicts. I don' belong here. I just want to be out of here.
Agon321
I use google translate
- Aug 21, 2023
- 1,654
Well, if a war broke out in my country, I would commit suicide very quickly.
Or I would wait until I get a gun and shoot myself in the head.
War is not romantic and I don't want to suffer unnecessarily
Personally, I wouldn't risk and fight in any war, even as a volunteer.
Too much risk of great suffering.Similar threads
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