Venting Living on borrowed time

[lostinthecha0s]

Anyone else feel like they're living on borrowed time after giving up on a CTB plan or failing a CTB plan.
I feel like I could and should leave any day on a whim and feel unable to plan for a future so when I got unexpected laid off from my job I just started to make a plan again because it seems like the only logical next step when the time your living off of wasn't suppose to be yours anyway.

I just wonder when the time will run out.

 

[3amwife]

I've attempted twice and the looming thought of giving it another try has been strengthening ever since I had to move back to hometown from visa issues; Right now I am too overwhelmed with my jobs that it's stopping me but the moment I'm home or am taking a break I think, which leads to fantasizing, which leads to planning… it hasn't crossed to attempting though. I don't want to be so fragile but I am. I wish to be fixed but also wish to give up.