Venting Life will always beat you down (A story about my day)

[Spite]

Today, I have been reminded yet again that to live is to suffer.

I can't disclose here exactly what I create, but I am an artist and I have been creating art and posting it online for about a year now. I've always been very obscure and my works don't get much viewership. Last night, I actually had something good happen to me for once. I happened to get lucky and somebody found my art and decided to promote it. I gained a number of new followers, Likes, and some people left some very nice comments for me. Seeing all of this made me feel a genuine happiness that I haven't felt in a long time.

I woke up this morning in a good mood, and I honestly can't remember the last time I ever sprung out of bed and started the day feeling positive and hopeful.

Anyways, I went to work, got into my usual routine and did what I always do every day. I'm a courier - I deliver parcels all day to people who do online shopping from their homes. Today a few hours into my shift, I arrived at a house and as soon as I arrived, a man standing outside started raising his voice at me. At the same time, a loud garbage truck happened to be passing by, so I couldn't even understand what he was saying. I felt very intimidated by him so I quickly waved at him, dropped the parcel off, then I turned around and started walking away. As I was walking back to my vehicle, all I could hear him say was "Yeah keep walking the whole fucking distance you piece of shit". I genuinely have no idea what he was talking about and I don't even know what I did to warrant such angry and abusive words directed towards me.

As I drove away I started crying, and, well, my whole day was effectively ruined, and now I'm back to my miserable self again. I don't even feel like continuing with my art and I'm not in mood to create anything anymore.

My point is that what happened today is basically a summary of my entire life - whenever I start to feel happy, whenever I start to lighten up and feel a sense of hope, life almost immediately shoves me back down. In recent years I have even started to have anxiety on the rare occasions when something good happens to me because I just know that my happiness won't last long before something comes along and ruins everything. In this instance, my happiness didn't even last a full 24 hours. But that's just life isn't it?

Happiness is only fleeting and temporary. Pain and suffering is 100% guaranteed, ALWAYS.

 

[Theresnoescape]

I agree with you, life is just brutal and unfair the majority of the time. I'm like that too, get anxious even during good times and worrying about what's coming my way.

 

[lifelite]

As a loner even the smallest things can ruin my whole week. And then month. But that soab definately deserves a lesson he never had/had too little

I hope some brightnes to your day! and month!

 

[darksouls]

people in real life are truly hell

 

[58Alice85]

It seems as if normies by instinct can detect when someone is gaining peace and happiness and then immediately try to break him down and ruin his day
had myself similar experience just getting a little bit better sitting on a bench in the park then suddenly out of nowhere people bothering me
f*** normies they can all die for all i care
glad i will be dead soon

 

[InevitableDeath]

Ain't that the truth. I've got an ex partner who has set a for hire stalking group on me. No peace outside, no peace at home, meanwhile they tear down any support you have, break into your house and smash things.

After fighting it for years I've given up, its a major reason for ctbing right now

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I'm sorry that happened to you. You didn't deserve to be treated this way.

I too also get pushed down whenever I feel happy, so I definitely relate. That's why I have virtually given up on trying to be happy in general.