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Rudiger

Member
Mar 12, 2023
8
So. What's the point in living life if you're going to end up dying.

I can understand if you have a good happy life, and make positive impact on others, but for the rest of us that see no merit in living then whats the point of dragging the chain and delaying the inevitable? Why suffer throughout life.

I guess the next question to ctb is how strong your SI is. For example if you had a loaded gun in hand would you take the shot without a thought.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
245
Exactly.

What if the others are not even real? What if Earth is some kind of solipsistic hell for the single unlucky soul that was chosen to live? What if that so-called "happy life" is just ones and zeros in a sadistic computer? Someone here once said (was it Darkover?) that the best orgasm is inferior to the worst suffering.

I wish I had a handgun and I could get a clean shot to my brain stem. Lucky Americans.
 
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Rudiger

Member
Mar 12, 2023
8
Lucky Americans indeed. My main concerns is hurting loved ones but to me, my priority comes first.
 
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MercenariesofMidgar

Specialist
Nov 30, 2024
375
Everything will pass in time, as if they never existed at all.

There is no clear point. Most people will never get their answer. There are some, those lucky few.
 
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Rudiger

Member
Mar 12, 2023
8
Its funny to think "this time" as in a time when we are conditioned by society to be controlled and dependent by the $. Its slavery in a different flavour. I chose to be in a different time and different place, even if it's nothingness.

Yes I do agree everything will pass, as if nothing existed. All I can ask for is a reboot and challenge my maker.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,263
My reason is so to avoid causing deliberate pain to others. Mainly to my Dad seeing as he would be the most affected. It's a horrible emotional blackmail trap though. Effectively and ironically set by the people we are now trying to protect. Weird really. We're doing all we can to protect the people that enabled all this pain to begin with.
 
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Rudiger

Member
Mar 12, 2023
8
Sorry to hear about your dad. I try not to see it as causing deliberate pain to others, rather their failure to see the signs. If you have dependencies, that can, keep you alive. I hear stories of how having kids can keep somone going. Everyone's circumstances can be different.

For me, I live with the thought with the main goal to ctb comfortably and freely. I've already made the point of no return financially with preperations and will make a follow up post when I'm at that point.
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
950
My username says it all…
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,332
There could never be a point to this hell called life

Work all day a job and chores only to get old and exist under threat of extreme torture. Problems lower level suffering every day existing as a slave just waiting until the really constant unbearable pain hits so bad it's a trillion times worse than you can imagine

Why do I have to live another minute? Nobody has even answered this question when I ask it

Even if there were no extreme suffering why do I have to want to live another minute?

I also ask the question for any of the sub addictions of the life addiction

Person " Will you Watch sports tonight? "

Me : No . Why .

Person: You should have your own children

Why do I need to have children?

Why do I have to get friends and a gf?

I don't have to do anything

None of that is going to solve my problems anyway

What will solve all my problems is taking a certain drink or shooting myself with my rifle

What I want is to get to non-existence asap
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,962
I really understand as all I wish for is to be permanently free from this torturous, futile existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, to me continuing to exist is just prolonging the suffering of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what.

I could never see a point to any of this rather it's all jus dreadful unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I see so much cruelty in how painless guaranteed death is so cruelly denied for me even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway, I find it horrific how a human can exist for so long just to die in agony from old age. Non-existence really is all I personally see as positive and desirable and is the only peace for me, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want this cruel, unnecessary existence that I never would had chosen to finally be all gone and forgotten about, it's just so terrible to me how this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was imposed when never suffering at all was perfection, I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity.
 
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NoMoreSanity

Member
Mar 17, 2025
90
There isn't one. I'm sick of people asking this question. There isn't a fucking point. We suffer and die.
 
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