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jes7ter

jes7ter

Member
Jul 27, 2023
14
my life is geniuinely so meaningless i dont see a point in doing anything
id try to do at least something remotely productive and i end up doing nothing, because its just pointless to me
lately i find myself wanting to get better but i know its impossible for me
i cant even look at other people im so jealous of what they have, just the pure bliss of being able to live knowing it has no meaning and be content with it
what hurts most is that when i die ill leave no trace and will be completely forgotten
ive come to accept my pointless life but it hurts that my death will be just as pointless
but i deserve nothing more than to live and die alone
 
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fishperson

fishperson

If only luck was by my side
Jan 22, 2026
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my life is geniuinely so meaningless i dont see a point in doing anything
id try to do at least something remotely productive and i end up doing nothing, because its just pointless to me
lately i find myself wanting to get better but i know its impossible for me
i cant even look at other people im so jealous of what they have, just the pure bliss of being able to live knowing it has no meaning and be content with it
what hurts most is that when i die ill leave no trace and will be completely forgotten
ive come to accept my pointless life but it hurts that my death will be just as pointless
but i deserve nothing more than to live and die alone
yep , my first attempt made me realize how insignificant im. nothing cares about us , like a fart in the wind LOL
 
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jes7ter

jes7ter

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Jul 27, 2023
14
yep , my first attempt made me realize how insignificant im. nothing cares about us , like a fart in the wind LOL
ok fart in the wind made me laugh ngl
powerful analogy
 
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niki wonoto

Experienced
Oct 10, 2019
243
the insignificance of everything we do makes me depressed too. it all just feels so pointless.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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would it feel better if you worked a job that felt meaningful?

I'm asking this in general, not specifically back to OP

If you were a nurse or firefighter or something that felt like it had importance in the community would life be better?

I feel like I made terrible career choices and wondering if something in these areas would have made me feel better
 

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