letters

[meowmauve]

I never thought I'd be the type of person to write letters but I also feel like I have so much i dont want to leave unsaid. letters feel kinda dumb and way too cliché but I have a hard time ending things without them. I never felt like this before, and I never even considered writing before an attempt but maybe its just because I have new people in my life. I hate the feeling of people caring about me because it makes killing myself feel more selfish. I just want to die and I dont want anyone to care I feel so much guilt lol.

anyway I got off topic... is anyone else planning on writing letters?

 

[February_In_April]

I don't plan on writing any letters.
I actually thought I'd be the type of person to write letters when I was younger but as time moves on and I got older and things have changed like my perspective on things etc. I also hate the feeling of people caring about me because it makes my thoughts about wanting to killing myself feel more selfish too. I just don't want anyone to care about this if that day for me ever comes. Just knowing that we're all gonna die someday should be enough to make the guilt go away but it doesn't at times. I just wish things weren't so complicated. I do get waves of guilt about it sometime but I just don't think I could ever fully express myself through letters to people because I feel like I have so much to say. I just don't think they could wrap their heads around it or be able to comprehend what I'm trying to express to them in writing my letters if I ever did.

 

[scary]

I most likely won't. I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words and I wouldn't even begin to know what to write besides the standard "I love you" and "I'm sorry that I did this / you having to witness this" and a half-assed attempt at a note would personally make me feel guilt. I just tell myself that I'll be dead anyway so it technically won't even matter in the end.