Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
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I suppose in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter and if someone I found physically attractive were to throw themselves at me, I might go for it although my anxious nature would probably get in the way and assume they have some ulterior motive in that case so maybe I still wouldn't. The urge itself comes from biological instincts, hormones, and maybe societal expectations. It's easy to say it comes with the territory of being male but maybe it also just comes with the territory of being a disgusting freak.Why only with someone you've got feelings for? Does it matter? I only want to lose my V card because I'm curious about sex and what it feels like
Often times I also crave the emotional and nonsexually physical aspects of being with a romantic partner more than anything. I've never experienced it but just the thought of embracing someone while she embraces me back fills me with much sadness that I won't get to experience it. It sounds corny and stupid but I want someone to be able to express that they love me and maybe then I would finally start being able to love myself because of how I love them in turn. Sometimes I just want to be able to look someone in the eye while caressing their body and feel their touch on mine. What must it feel like to actually have someone's lips upon mine? It's sickening, I know but still the lack of it weighs heavily on me from time to time.