VivaldiBR
Experienced
- Oct 4, 2020
- 249
I was happy, or at least happier until two years ago. In 2019, things started to go wrong and life hit me hard.
I lost my job and haven't gotten another one so far; I ended a 7-year relationship, in which I was betrayed; I moved back in with my parents, and a I really hate my father; I started to go bald and get older (wrinkles appear all over my face), which is making me feel very ugly; I moved away from my friends, because of the effects of my depression; I started to develop back pain; the country I live in has faced a political and economic crisis for more than 5 years. And unfortunately, I can't afford psychological treatment.
I am now 30 years old. I don't know if this is normal for those going through this phase, but it's been 6 months since I thought about CTB every single day. I know a local history of suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning and this seems to be the most accessible method for me.
That's just an outburst.
Ps.: Sorry about my English. It is not my native language.
My history*
I lost my job and haven't gotten another one so far; I ended a 7-year relationship, in which I was betrayed; I moved back in with my parents, and a I really hate my father; I started to go bald and get older (wrinkles appear all over my face), which is making me feel very ugly; I moved away from my friends, because of the effects of my depression; I started to develop back pain; the country I live in has faced a political and economic crisis for more than 5 years. And unfortunately, I can't afford psychological treatment.
I am now 30 years old. I don't know if this is normal for those going through this phase, but it's been 6 months since I thought about CTB every single day. I know a local history of suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning and this seems to be the most accessible method for me.
That's just an outburst.
Ps.: Sorry about my English. It is not my native language.
My history*
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