Method Leaving tomorrow. (SN)

[kkslider]

Tomorrow I am going to attempt (and hopefully succeed!) to CTB. I'll be using SN, and here's a brief overview of my regimen.

1. Cimetidine 600mg 2HR before.

2. Diphenhydramine 1HR before (AE replacement, couldn't get anything Rx).

3. SN 20g/50 ml water.

I'll be using exclusively OTC meds as I don't want to go through the hassle of getting anything prescribed. I'll be creating a new thread tomorrow to try and document how it goes before I pass out. Wish me luck!

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I hope it goes well.

 

[dyingalone123]

Farewell fellow sufferer. Wishing you the best. Don't feel ashamed if you can't Ctb or put it on hold.
Man I feel sad just looking at your kitty emoji

 

[setup]

I hope you find peace! We're here if u change ur mind!

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[kkslider]

Farewell fellow sufferer. Wishing you the best. Don't feel ashamed if you can't Ctb or put it on hold.
Man I feel sad just looking at your kitty emoji

Hahaha ikr! It just speaks to me though…

 

[samras]

Best of luck with your plans.

 

[tissosad]

Wish you peace. Will you be taking painkillers?

 

[canna2]

Tomorrow I am going to attempt (and hopefully succeed!) to CTB. I'll be using SN, and here's a brief overview of my regimen.

1. Cimetidine 600mg 2HR before.

2. Diphenhydramine 1HR before (AE replacement, couldn't get anything Rx).

3. SN 20g/50 ml water.

I'll be using exclusively OTC meds as I don't want to go through the hassle of getting anything prescribed. I'll be creating a new thread tomorrow to try and document how it goes before I pass out. Wish me luck!

Another way you can get an AE is to tell the doctor you see ghosts. Then you can ask for olanzapine.

 

[Account unknown]

Tomorrow I am going to attempt (and hopefully succeed!) to CTB. I'll be using SN, and here's a brief overview of my regimen.

1. Cimetidine 600mg 2HR before.

2. Diphenhydramine 1HR before (AE replacement, couldn't get anything Rx).

3. SN 20g/50 ml water.

I'll be using exclusively OTC meds as I don't want to go through the hassle of getting anything prescribed. I'll be creating a new thread tomorrow to try and document how it goes before I pass out. Wish me luck!

I never know what to say to posts like these. I don't wanna say "good luck" or say something positive because you want to take your life and that shouldn't be celebrated. It's sad no matter the situation.

I can only say if there's no hope of improvement in your life, then I hope you find the quick peace that you are looking for but I'm sorry that you are in this position to begin with where you feel like this is the only choice you can make.

Also remember that it's never too late to back out even though you have already made this thread. If you have second thoughts and doubts at all don't feel like you're forced into still going along with it because you said you would, you can back out at any time and try again a different time.

I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a big bear hug. I respect your decision either way and whether it's in life or death I hope you find the peace you are looking for and that it comes quick and painlessly.

 

[dyingalone123]

I never know what to say to posts like these. I don't wanna say "good luck" or say something positive because you want to take your life and that shouldn't be celebrated. It's sad no matter the situation.

I can only say if there's no hope of improvement in your life, then I hope you find the quick peace that you are looking for but I'm sorry that you are in this position to begin with where you feel like this is the only choice you can make.

Also remember that it's never too late to back out even though you have already made this thread. If you have second thoughts and doubts at all don't feel like you're forced into still going along with it because you said you would, you can back out at any time and try again a different time.

I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a big bear hug. I respect your decision either way and whether it's in life or death I hope you find the peace you are looking for and that it comes quick and painlessly.

I feel the same.

 

[meetapple]

I hope all goes well.

 

[healthrecovery]

Why not combine SN with benzo's

 

[rationaltake]

Man I feel sad just looking at your kitty emoji

Me too. @kkslider That kitty breaks my heart. It makes me realise how much you must be suffering. So sorry. I wish I could help.

 

[aminend]

I hope u best
Peaceful journey
And better world

 

[Lifeless mindset]

Good luck! See you on the other side.

 

[SadJessu]

I wish you peace.

 

[kkslider]

Thank you all so much for the kind words :,)

I hope people are online tomorrow when I make the new thread so I can talk to someone lol. I feel like it would be easier if I wasn't alone

Why not combine SN with benzo's

I just can't be bothered to try and get them prescribed, and I'm a bit financially.. well I'm poor. I believe diphenhydramine has a sedative effect, so here's hoping!

I never know what to say to posts like these. I don't wanna say "good luck" or say something positive because you want to take your life and that shouldn't be celebrated. It's sad no matter the situation.

I can only say if there's no hope of improvement in your life, then I hope you find the quick peace that you are looking for but I'm sorry that you are in this position to begin with where you feel like this is the only choice you can make.

Also remember that it's never too late to back out even though you have already made this thread. If you have second thoughts and doubts at all don't feel like you're forced into still going along with it because you said you would, you can back out at any time and try again a different time.

I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a big bear hug. I respect your decision either way and whether it's in life or death I hope you find the peace you are looking for and that it comes quick and painlessly.

Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words. I do feel a bit odd considering suicide, as I know many in this cruel world would be elated to take my place. But due to an abusive upbringing, I am wholly unable to function as a normal human being. I'm barely an adult, and I simply find the world to be too daunting. I'm too weak. I tried so hard to be as unassuming and kind as possible, and I'd be hard pressed to find someone who could say I've wronged them. However, I just feel that I'm not cut out for it all. I suffer from anxiety and PTSD from the heinous actions that my caregivers committed, and they to this day have not acknowledged their actions. I don't want sympathy, or even an apology… I don't really know what I want. I wish I was enough for someone. I wish i was stronger. I just want to be gone, and I hope my afterlife is pleasant.

Wish you peace. Will you be taking painkillers?

No, my stomach is pretty sensitive, and due to a failed Tylenol OD at 17 the taste of it will probably make me so nauseous I'll fail the attempt lol. But I'm pretty thin, so I'm hoping I'll be able to pass out quickly.

 

[dyingalone123]

Awws bye bye kkslider! I'll remember animal crossing kkslider singing for you. If you ever do change your mind - don't be ashamed or afraid!!

I understand your anxiety - I don't know how I'm going to handle the world if and when the pandemic ends.

 

[devian]

i love you, kkslider, and hope u find peace

 

[okaoki]

Have a safe and peaceful journey

 

[blueclover_.]

Tomorrow I am going to attempt (and hopefully succeed!) to CTB. I'll be using SN, and here's a brief overview of my regimen.

1. Cimetidine 600mg 2HR before.

2. Diphenhydramine 1HR before (AE replacement, couldn't get anything Rx).

3. SN 20g/50 ml water.

I'll be using exclusively OTC meds as I don't want to go through the hassle of getting anything prescribed. I'll be creating a new thread tomorrow to try and document how it goes before I pass out. Wish me luck!

Friend, please take painkillers! 1000 mg of paracetamol will do. Best wishes to you.

Edit: Apparently you're sensitive to painkillers, i guess there's not much left to do. Benadryl can be used as a replacement for benzos, but it seems like you're set with these. Hope all goes well for you.

 

[liberty_222]

Are you still here or...

 

[ddd1234]

Are you still here or...

I think he is gone :(

 

[soverytired]

20g seems like too much for someone using only otc meds. There definitely was a lot of throwing up involved.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I think he is gone :(

but he said he would make a separate farewell thread

 

[liberty_222]

20g seems like too much for someone using only otc meds. There definitely was a lot of throwing up involved.

Okay if I weigh maximum 50kg and I use OTC meds how much sn should i be taking

 

[soverytired]

Okay if I weigh maximum 50kg and I use OTC meds how much sn should i be taking

It's really hard to say. For me I simply wouldn't try SN without acquiring some prescription antiemetics.

 

[liberty_222]

It's really hard to say. For me I simply wouldn't try SN without acquiring some prescription antiemetics.

My father used to buy perinorm all the time because obviously he knows sellers in the city. I've already asked him to get the meto but I am worried about pushing it too much in case he wonders why i need it all of a sudden. But I'm trying.

 

[kkslider]

Awws bye bye kkslider! I'll remember animal crossing kkslider singing for you. If you ever do change your mind - don't be ashamed or afraid!!

I understand your anxiety - I don't know how I'm going to handle the world if and when the pandemic ends.

Awww, thank you!! My favorite song is Steep Hill TT

20g seems like too much for someone using only otc meds. There definitely was a lot of throwing up involved

Maybe I'll reduce it then… I'm relatively thin, borderline underweight so maybe I'll do like 10-15g.