kicking away the chair

[NotOkay_]

:( I can't seem to kick away the chair. I'm too focused on the "what ifs". It's not the method, i feel comfortable with this one. Idk. Things are never gonna improve. I wish they could, of course I don't wanna CTB but that's the only option left. It's simply another (inevitable) task I've been procrastinating on the to-do list. *sigh

 

[WornOutLife]

If it's the only option left, there will be a moment in which you'll kick away the chair.
I bet it's really difficult to do it!

Send you peace, hugs and love.

 

[woknows]

:( I can't seem to kick away the chair. I'm too focused on the "what ifs". It's not the method, i feel comfortable with this one. Idk. Things are never gonna improve. I wish they could, of course I don't wanna CTB but that's the only option left. It's simply another (inevitable) task I've been procrastinating on the to-do list. *sigh

Maybe you are not ready. You should reevaluate your situation. I hope you find a better way.

I do not know your reasoning. Maybe spelling out the reason can help you rethink it. It does not seem you are certain that things cannot improve and hence feel hesitant to exit your life.

 

[NotOkay_]

Maybe you are not ready. You should reevaluate your situation. I hope you find a better way.

I do not know your reasoning. Maybe spelling out the reason can help you rethink it. It does not seem you are certain that things cannot improve and hence feel hesitant to exit your life.

I've DONE above and beyond what most would do in my situation and I've rethought, reevaluated, ALLLLLL the things. It's genuinely something i HAVE to do one way or the other. Not trying to CTB for fun. I'm pretty sure no one is. This is the last resort.

 

[Bigbigsmall]

I'm where you are now. Scared of kicking that chair in case it fails or I can't slip away painlessly a d peacefully.
There should be a legal way of doing it like dignitas in e very county where if you want to CTB you can.why don't they have suicide centres where you can get put to sleep if you want to.
I would go . Donate all my possessions a d organs to whoever wants then and push that button.

 

[NotOkay_]

I'm where you are now. Scared of kicking that chair in case it fails or I can't slip away painlessly a d peacefully.
There should be a legal way of doing it like dignitas in e very county where if you want to CTB you can.why don't they have suicide centres where you can get put to sleep if you want to.
I would go . Donate all my possessions a d organs to whoever wants then and push that button.

Every home should be able to have a suicide booth installed in them

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

I don't think I could ever attempt hanging; it's way too technical and runs the risk of ending up disabled in various ways. I'd keep looking for a relatively peaceful way to leave if it's within your means.

 

[NotOkay_]

I don't think I could ever attempt hanging; it's way too technical and runs the risk of ending up disabled in various ways. I'd keep looking for a relatively peaceful way to leave if it's within your means.

I have sn but too much could go wrong and it's too slow, my anxiety wants it to be quick and painless/short lived pain. I've weighed my pros and cons for each method. This is the best i can do :(

I don't think I could ever attempt hanging; it's way too technical and runs the risk of ending up disabled in various ways. I'd keep looking for a relatively peaceful way to leave if it's within your means.

Done properly ,the destination is the same at the end of the day.

 

[kkatt]

These were the exact words my best friend said to me moments before he did kick away the chair.
I think it's a solid method if you are ready,but if you have things playing on your mind,there's always another day

 

[Abir_london]

I'm sorry you feel that way.

hanging is not easy, don't be harsh on yourself
The day will come
Have you tried more peaceful unconscious methods?

 

[NotOkay_]

I'm sorry you feel that way.

hanging is not easy, don't be harsh on yourself
The day will come
Have you tried more peaceful unconscious methods?

I have sn, I have jumping, drowning as well. I just can't seem to cross the line my anxiety has gotten worse since the peak of my suicidality

I'm sorry you feel that way.

hanging is not easy, don't be harsh on yourself
The day will come
Have you tried more peaceful unconscious methods?

The longer i wait the worse it gets. By prolonging things I'm doing myself a disservice

 

[wunschtraum]

couldnt kick the chair too :/
the SI is so hard. wish i had SN or N...

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I've made the decision to never comment directly on any specific individuals "suicide journey" but instead only partake in vague and general discussions so I can't help you. Nice profile pic, tho.

 

[NotOkay_]

couldnt kick the chair too :/
the SI is so hard. wish i had SN or N...

Sn is to drawn out and unpredictable for me, not enough data as well. That makes me uncomfortable.

I've made the decision to never comment directly on any specific individuals "suicide journey" but instead only partake in vague and general discussions so I can't help you. Nice profile pic, tho.

Why you commenting then...?

I've made the decision to never comment directly on any specific individuals "suicide journey" but instead only partake in vague and general discussions so I can't help you. Nice profile pic, tho.

Not asking anyone to push me off the chair lol

 

[wunschtraum]

i dont want that anyone other kicks the chair :D either i can or not.
trying until it works i think

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Why you commenting then...?

Same reason why I haven't killed myself, no fucking clue.

 

[wunschtraum]

i dont Know if i am more afraid that it works or not after kicking the chair.... they really should not find ne alive after hours of hanging. Do I really die by full within 1 hour?

 

[NotOkay_]

Same reason why I haven't killed myself, no fucking clue.

Same

i dont Know if i am more afraid that it works or not after kicking the chair.... they really should not find ne alive after hours of hanging. Do I really die by full within 1 hour?

Yeah you just need to know deep down if it's the right thing for you

 

[wunschtraum]

there is no "right thing" in any case...
I only know i cant stay

 

[NotOkay_]

there is no "right thing" in any case...
I only know i cant stay

:(!