I've lost myself, why do I keep going?

[borderlinee]

I dont recognize myself, most days I dont feel human or like im real at all. Just stuck in some never ending loop that always ends the same, I can no longer distract myself, there are a few good things in life that keep me going, but im not sure its realistic in long term and it doesnt keep me sane. With all of the stuff thats happening around the world and probably gonna happen, its better to just end it now. I dont know what im scared of missing out on, i just cant face myself and my existence, I feel completely trapped here.

 

[human909]

You kinda the same as me, i think one reason you keep going is either you don't want to hurt the people around you or the SI thoughts is super strong.

 

[WanderingGypsy]

I dont recognize myself, most days I dont feel human or like im real at all. Just stuck in some never ending loop that always ends the same, I can no longer distract myself, there are a few good things in life that keep me going, but im not sure its realistic in long term and it doesnt keep me sane. With all of the stuff thats happening around the world and probably gonna happen, its better to just end it now. I dont know what im scared of missing out on, i just cant face myself and my existence, I feel completely trapped here.

I completely relate to this! I've started to almost feel like I'm on the outside of myself looking in on my life, and it's so boring and worthless. Like you said, it feels like life is on a loop, we just keep doing the same things over and over, and nothing changes. For me that's on a personal level and a bigger social level. That's why it's so hard to keep going sometimes. Like what's the point when I can't break free from this awful life? I hope you're able to find peace or comfort and not feel trapped!

 

[knighterrant]

I feel that way too. I will add that everything is so formulaic that you have the impression that you are meeting the same people only in a slightly different "packaging". You feel like you're living in a simulation where it's the job of everyone around you to keep you in torment, but not to the point of killing yourself. The real world seems so unreal

 

[borderlinee]

You kinda the same as me, i think one reason you keep going is either you don't want to hurt the people around you or the SI thoughts is super strong.

Everyday I just wait to receive the love I need, but it's the same lonely cycle that never ends, most relationships are temporary and it scares me. but yeah my SI has been super strong, I wish I would've taken advantage of it when it was low.

I completely relate to this! I've started to almost feel like I'm on the outside of myself looking in on my life, and it's so boring and worthless. Like you said, it feels like life is on a loop, we just keep doing the same things over and over, and nothing changes. For me that's on a personal level and a bigger social level. That's why it's so hard to keep going sometimes. Like what's the point when I can't break free from this awful life? I hope you're able to find peace or comfort and not feel trapped!

It's hard to keep doing this everyday and it's only gonna get harder, but I don't know how to accept dying too. I wish the best for you.

I feel that way too. I will add that everything is so formulaic that you have the impression that you are meeting the same people only in a slightly different "packaging". You feel like you're living in a simulation where it's the job of everyone around you to keep you in torment, but not to the point of killing yourself. The real world seems so unreal

my exact thoughts, it's all just a big trap, the desire for love and pleasure, it all just gives you more pain, but it feels impossible to escape.

 

[knighterrant]

Sometimes I wonder how many times in my life I have met people who also had an unmet need for strong love, but fate did not bring us together, so we live side by side in blissful ignorance. Some of them we will never meet again in our lives. And if fate brought us together, we would be everything to each other. Maybe it is naive, but that is what I think