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degreesoflewdity

degreesoflewdity

i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
Jun 24, 2023
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none of my thouguts make sense anymore. i contradict myself and i don't even know what im feeling anymore. is it sadness? anger? hopelessness? no idea. i dont know what im doing or what im going to do anymore. this is scary, that this js all i can feel. none of it makes sense but this is the only feeling that makes sense. the feeling of nothingness! that i dont feel anything but i feel it so deeply. it feels like im going insane because even i cant comprehend what i just said or remember what i just typed.
 
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sadbh—itstimetogo🤎

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Journaling might help? Have you slept? Is it your first time feeling this way?
 
degreesoflewdity

degreesoflewdity

i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
Jun 24, 2023
156
Journaling might help? Have you slept? Is it your first time feeling this way?
i journaled a bit in the past few weeks but none of my writings made sense either. i sleep, and this isnt my first time feeling this way. my last time was years ago when i was on medication, im not on medication anymore but thank you for worrying
 
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Jul 11, 2026
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very relatable.. i would say my thoughts still make sense, but they have a tinge of artaud-like nonsense to them, i don't know how to feel
 
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i journaled a bit in the past few weeks but none of my writings made sense either. i sleep, and this isnt my first time feeling this way. my last time was years ago when i was on medication, im not on medication anymore but thank you for worrying
Are you open to talking to a doctor about this? Medication could make a huge difference
 
degreesoflewdity

degreesoflewdity

i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
Jun 24, 2023
156
Are you open to talking to a doctor about this? Medication could make a huge difference
honestly where i live im not sure its an option anymore. i tried to look for any psychiatrist hospital that could take me and theres none in my area. i moved away and there isnt much therapy options here that ive seen sadly.
 

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