I’ve gotta do it

[MalboroMan420]

I said I'd do it last week.. and I didn't .. and so I gotta do it this week… I don't have much of a plan, which in and of itself is a bad idea, but I do know I'll go out by drowning… I would say I plan to get plastered before hand, but I've had experiences where I've been drunker than a skunk, got into the water and immediately sobered up… however that was with cold water.. so if I plan on going in plastered, it will need to be done during the daytime which is far more harder than it seems :/

Unless the lakes and ponds will stay warm at night, maybe I'll get to catch a little sunset before I submerge myself .. I don't plan on hyperventilating before I drown.. I just plan on simple walking in and holding my breath until I absolutely cannot.

I have practiced this and usually can not get past a minute and a half holding my breath.. and if I remember correct, you need to hold for 4 minutes to lose consciousness.

So we will see. Tomorrow I need the courage to wake up, shower, dress for work, go get a coffee from the gas station per usual, and then take a left out of the gas station instead of a right turn… head for the interstate.

I'm unbelievably angry sometimes that the world has lead me to this. If things were different I'd stay.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Drowning is a very hard method to do intentionally. Its also very, very painful. It generally isn't recommended.

 

[canihavepeaceforonce]

Why not a simpler way to go? Drowning isn't easy as the body doesn't let you give up till the end and it's just seems hard for me to do intentionally

 

[MalboroMan420]

Drowning is a very hard method to do intentionally. Its also very, very painful. It generally isn't recommended.

I know. I have the advantage that I cannot swim so SI cannot do much beside fling my around. And I've heard it is actually quite peaceful. Sure there is undoubtedly suffering, you are basically asphyxiating yourself and cutting off your oxygen.. but I've heard that once you inhale water you get overwhelmed when a peaceful sensation, almost like you're very sleepy..

every way out of here is going to have some agony with it. That's just the facts. If there was a simple no frills method I'd take it.

Why not a simpler way to go? Drowning isn't easy as the body doesn't let you give up till the end and it's just seems hard for me to do intentionally

If I can find a tall enough water fall, I can plunge into 10 or so feet of water and stay at the bottom with some weights. I can't swim so, there'd be no SI swimming here

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Drowning is NOT peaceful, I have no idea where you heard this. I have come close to drowning by accident before and its an insane feeling. Every method has its ups and downs but inhaling water into your lungs is going to hurt like a bitch. Its your choice, though.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

Same. I keep promising myself that I'm going to go. But I'm still here. I'm a proven failure.

 

[MalboroMan420]

Drowning is NOT peaceful, I have no idea where you heard this. I have come close to drowning by accident before and its an insane feeling. Every method has its ups and downs but inhaling water into your lungs is going to hurt like a bitch. Its your choice, though.

Well you see I've wittled my stick down to almost nothing. I have attempted to shoot myself but that did not end the way in which I anticipated.. so that is scratched off the list and because of that.. I am never allowed to own or be in possession of any firearms.

So my options are scarce. Drowning, or .. drowning. SN seems like too much complexity for me and I cannot wait weeks for it to get here .. much less find a reputable source

 

[CW36]

Well you see I've wittled my stick down to almost nothing. I have attempted to shoot myself but that did not end the way in which I anticipated.. so that is scratched off the list and because of that.. I am never allowed to own or be in possession of any firearms.

So my options are scarce. Drowning, or .. drowning. SN seems like too much complexity for me and I cannot wait weeks for it to get here .. much less find a reputable source

Hanging is better than drowning.

 

[MalboroMan420]

Hanging is better than drowning.

if I can't tie my shoes I certainly can't tie a noose, haha

Hanging is better than drowning.

I still feel like compared with drowning I'd always pick drowning. Don't like to be choked and having something around my neck would set off SI way worse than water for me Id like to think

 

[CW36]

if I can't tie my shoes I certainly can't tie a noose, haha

Well I can't argue with that brother

 

[jajajaja]

I'm unbelievably angry sometimes that the world has lead me to this. If things were different I'd stay.

Believe me, I feel the same exact way. A mix of feeling angry, frustrated, confused, and overwhelming sadness for a long would drive any normal person to this point. I really wish the best for you.

 

[TimetoGo!]

I said I'd do it last week.. and I didn't .. and so I gotta do it this week… I don't have much of a plan, which in and of itself is a bad idea, but I do know I'll go out by drowning… I would say I plan to get plastered before hand, but I've had experiences where I've been drunker than a skunk, got into the water and immediately sobered up… however that was with cold water.. so if I plan on going in plastered, it will need to be done during the daytime which is far more harder than it seems :/

Unless the lakes and ponds will stay warm at night, maybe I'll get to catch a little sunset before I submerge myself .. I don't plan on hyperventilating before I drown.. I just plan on simple walking in and holding my breath until I absolutely cannot.

I have practiced this and usually can not get past a minute and a half holding my breath.. and if I remember correct, you need to hold for 4 minutes to lose consciousness.

So we will see. Tomorrow I need the courage to wake up, shower, dress for work, go get a coffee from the gas station per usual, and then take a left out of the gas station instead of a right turn… head for the interstate.

I'm unbelievably angry sometimes that the world has lead me to this. If things were different I'd stay.

From someone with a fair few attempts at drowning, I promise you will not be able to just hold your breath until you drown, your body simply wont allow it.

And alcohol alone, unless maybe completely obliterated, wont work either. You will need heavier sedation and also either weights or something to hold your legs and arms from lashing out once your body gasps for air.

I found it took alot longer than I expected to pass out, I was inhaling water and panicked my way upto air again. I wasn't tied under on that attempt though.

This will probably still be my method eventually, as it just appeals to me more than any other that I have researched in detail. Even if I had a gun I wouldn't want someone to find the mess, its just not fair and leaves an awful legacy.

Alot will say drowning isn't for them, each to their own , its personal choice

 

[Justnotme]

From someone with a fair few attempts at drowning, I promise you will not be able to just hold your breath until you drown, your body simply wont allow it.

And alcohol alone, unless maybe completely obliterated, wont work either. You will need heavier sedation and also either weights or something to hold your legs and arms from lashing out once your body gasps for air.

I found it took alot longer than I expected to pass out, I was inhaling water and panicked my way upto air again. I wasn't tied under on that attempt though.

This will probably still be my method eventually, as it just appeals to me more than any other that I have researched in detail. Even if I had a gun I wouldn't want someone to find the mess, its just not fair and leaves an awful legacy.

Alot will say drowning isn't for them, each to their own , its personal choice

Tell me, please, what do you think about drowning after drinking alcohol with sleeping pills and benzodiazepine pills before that?
Will I be able to lose consciousness and then drown peacefully in the water?
Or do you need some drugs to first fall asleep soundly and then drown peacefully?
If a person is fast asleep, will the water that gets into the lungs when drowning wake him up?

 

[TimetoGo!]

Tell me, please, what do you think about drowning after drinking alcohol with sleeping pills and benzodiazepine pills before that?
Will I be able to lose consciousness and then drown peacefully in the water?
Or do you need some drugs to first fall asleep soundly and then drown peacefully?
If a person is fast asleep, will the water that gets into the lungs when drowning wake him up?

all the information is out there and sometimes you have to try things out, which can go wrong.

I ended up in hospital first time, and it brought a world of shit my way from people. my other attempts are my own secret.

I just read as much as I can , and then I'll commit to a method when the time is right.