Discussion It's crazy how the nastiest people will bring you in the nastiest place

[fkyou]

It's crazy how the nastiest people will bring you in the nastiest place which you can't get out from or improve your life in (my family isn't even nasty in their behavior with me they are what you call 'loving' but love isn't gonna build me a life)..and still act entitled to you now that you've grown up and can't cope with living like this ..I feel like if I'm gonna accept living like this for more decades.. it's just gonna be in self pity self harm self hate for what I couldn't do..and it doesn't seem like a pretty life to me..I know myself..I'm very cynical..I will hate myself for the rest of my life..and if that's how I'm gonna spend these decades if I decide to continue living this life then there's no need to do that. I can be happy in this place again only if I lose this awareness but there's no way to be ignorant again..I'm not a kid anymore nor ignorant unbothered like the rest of adults.

 

[LastLoveSong]

yeah for me personally it feels pointless to keep living when theres no logical reason for me to do so, my life is extremely depressing, the people i have to talk to everyday are depressing and i know none of this will ever change in a way that'll actually make me want to continue being alive. My existence is quite literally pointless, i serve no purpose to the world, except maybe as a punching bag if you wanna argue that point.