It’s crazy how having SN makes CTB not a fantasy anymore (for me at least)

[Tyra]

My SI was just way too high with hanging and I tried choking myself to pass out and it hurt too much.

But having SN makes dying a real possibility now, and it's crazy.

I just keep thinking about how I will have to commit to it and drink the cup of SN. And I'll actually be dead dead.

Like it's real. It's not just escapism fantasy anymore, like how hanging was.

Just something I need to wrap my head around because I never actually had access to a CTB method I would actually do.

 

[Ben 111]

Exactly .. It's almost like it's too good to be true

 

[dirkw83]

yes, i had the same feeling. Holding the package in my hand was a very strange feeling.

 

[hdead]

Agreed. A sense of control has joined the chat. I catch myself opening the bag every day to look at the contents and I leave a little sigh of relief, knowing it's there. I'm glad I got it, because the crackdown seems to be going down hard on all the sources.

It's even made me want to smoke weed again, because you know.. why not?

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Yes i feel relief when having SN

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Exactly .. It's almost like it's too good to be true

Yesss

Yes i feel relief when having SN

Samee