I have schizophrenia, what I am boutta tell you aligns with Schizophrenic person's delusions. It feels like hell in here sometimes and the only way to get out is to kill myself.
I don't get people being cruel for no reason other than fun. They hack me and treat me as entertainment like a lolcow.
They want to see my reaction to verify rumors or to qive questions or answers. These people hate me yet not mature enough to leave me alone.
These are the same people who pushed me over the edge multiple times to kill myself. I am tired in this hellscape and mess that is me.
I want to be normal and healthy, not whatever this is.
It feels a constant clash of reason and delusions in my head and I am trying to feel normal in here.
I wish mat rempits, Sri, Adam Raflish and hackers die.
I bought these one year back. Havent thrown them since it gives me security. I want to kill myself albeit in the spur of the moment.
I tried to kill but couldnt since I am a coward.
I had prepared the mix already, just need to drink it.
I am aware I am an asshole and need to calm down for guilt tripping and dont be if you are, just ignore but I just want someone to talk to me. Dont worry, I probably dont have the guts to kill myself.
I don't get people being cruel for no reason other than fun. They hack me and treat me as entertainment like a lolcow.
They want to see my reaction to verify rumors or to qive questions or answers. These people hate me yet not mature enough to leave me alone.
These are the same people who pushed me over the edge multiple times to kill myself. I am tired in this hellscape and mess that is me.
I want to be normal and healthy, not whatever this is.
It feels a constant clash of reason and delusions in my head and I am trying to feel normal in here.
I wish mat rempits, Sri, Adam Raflish and hackers die.
I bought these one year back. Havent thrown them since it gives me security. I want to kill myself albeit in the spur of the moment.I tried to kill but couldnt since I am a coward.
I had prepared the mix already, just need to drink it.
I am aware I am an asshole and need to calm down for guilt tripping and dont be if you are, just ignore but I just want someone to talk to me. Dont worry, I probably dont have the guts to kill myself.
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